as the year comes to a close, there's the ineffable probability that a sane, average individual like me would look back at how the past year has been. in short, a reevaluation of one's life. as i've said, it's much like what everyone else does when the new year comes. and for me to make a good one of it, i'm writing it down... which means it's gonna be published on the world wide web. ah! who reads this crap anyway?
it's been a year full of varied activities. i'm now a member of four different organizations, all having nothing to do with the degree i'm pursuing. i must say i followed my heart and my soul all throughout this year. i'm with a music-related org, our provincial org, a football club and an org for film enthusiasts (i joined the last two orgs only this year). they cater to varied aspects of my person and personality. i don't think i'll be joining any more orgs, seeing as i hardly have time for each and every one of those orgs. lots of my free time have been devoted to pursuing those other interests of mine. seeing as i don't get much pleasure from studying about microorganisms, food processing and such, i've taken time to feed my soul in the various activities the UP community has to offer.
i was in introduced to football late january and it has become an addiction. i finally became a member last december 14. just watching the different matches inspires you to do better. hell, you think you can actually do the feats the various players have accomplished. the club members are also great. you get to play with all sexes (ther're only two as far as i know), ages and nationality. playing the game itself is exhilarating. plus, there's the free workout that comes with the joy of playing.
film has been one of the things i'm really interested in. it's not only a form of entertainment, it's a medium for social change, an arena for creative expression. life or what life could be or what we imagine life to be like captured in film/video, it's a great collaboration of the different people making up the crew that takes to make a film. not to mention that different people i've met and come to know as i became a member of this org. it's really a great feeling knowing that there are people who share your passion and who you could work with in pursuing that passion. turning two years old this february, this org has me busy accomplishing its goals. it's great to be part of something and you're doing things to promote its aims.
there have been a lot of firsts for me this year. my first time to play soccer and enjoy the famous sunken garden, first time to play the kahon (and right smack during the performance), stay in UP for the summer (took up math53 and happily passed!), first to have a great responsibility laid on my shoulders (thank you to those who trusted in me to handle those things), first time to go to a formal ball since highschool prom (the up cinema ball), first time to be down with chicken pox (and hopefully the last time). i also got acquainted with the various people populating sociology/philosophy/political books, like plato, aristotle, locke, marx, st. augustine, st. thomas aquinas and hobbes. this christmas break is also my first time to go out the number of times i did than my other vacations like summer or sem breaks. amazing. i also got to visit the ukay-ukay in metro manila and what delightful finds i've had.
like always, i'm still struggling through my subjects. i'm taking the last of my math series and i wish to take this only once. no repeats. but math is antagonistic to a lot of people, and that includes me. i haven't had the time to practice integration techniques during this break. extra effort is needed for me to fulfill that wish of mine. my first exam is disastrous, even without seeing my blue book yet. i got a disappointing grade in my major last sem. i know i could've done better there. my biochemistry is also frustrating. accounting is quite complex. you really have to sit all of them out. that's one thing i haven't done last sem. it seems this sem's going that way too. but at least, no failing grades for me last sem. and oh yeah, i plan to sit on those subjects longer. i'm in third year already. i'm just riding it out, like lau. we don't really enjoy our courses but we have no choice. this is all we've got and there's no more turning back. three years will have been wasted if we do.
three years worth of classmates. four organizations worth of people to share college life with. many faces have passed. some quite memorable, some there just sitting at the back of your mind, your memory triggered by your presence. others you don't feel like greeting when you cross paths, others you've shared something long-lasting with, others there to bring a smile to your face and a sunshine to your day. but nevertheless, i'm still lacking in people or socializing skills. i still shy away from the male sex. in fact, i ignore a lot of those people. even if we're both familiar to each other and the other seems keen on getting to know me (yes, the subject of some posts here in my blog), i just look straight ahead pretending not to notice when i see them. the bane of my life. having a lot of pride is it? or being insecure enough to warrant a silence notice on my head.
i was (this was some two hours ago) and still am wistful, remembering the days gone by. i'm glad that there have been a lot of laughs and meaningful moments. disappointing things have happened, bad things have come and gone, i've been faced with various challenges which seemed insurmountable but eventually looked easy after you've gone through them. there's been a lot of introspection, particularly these past few months. talks with ate jet have made me realize things about me and life in general. i've been on the verge on trying to give up on life as i know it and just concentrate on what's expected of me. just about. but then, i got back on track. i enjoy my life right now. it's not perfect, but it's just right. there's no radical change that i want to happen. ONLY that i have more MONEY and have MORE TIME. did i say i'm ambitious?
i feel. but i don't think i feel enough. friends are close to me when i'm literally close to them - that i get to see them and we get to talk about life. it's quite difficult for me to maintain something with people quite far away or out of touch with me. yes, there's that somehting you've shared, but it's not that easy for me to open up to them unlike to those people i've been seeing more regularly. and because i don't like to use the telephone, and do not have much money nor time to text them, communication is on a hiatus. and because of that, i said i don't feel enough. i may be aloof. but i could be unfeeling sometimes.
i love my family. everybody's grown up with the times. i think i'm the only one not living the way to do, seeing as i'm alone and about 212 kms away from home. but it's been a year of great bonding between me and my siblings. we spend a lot of time together, and i do like to be with them and have fun with them. just yesterday, we watched king kong in a movie theater, all expenses on me. i love them. i love my mom and dad. this family's the best. even if we're quite "cut off" from the rest of the world, there's no other place i'd rather be.
a digression: you can't always show all aspects of your personality. when you're talking with someone about something you really like or are interested in, what that person will see is a nice picture of you. the varying circumstances are what brings out the other sides of personality, whether nice or nasty. i just remembered this, coming upon the thought when i remembered somebody in the movies saying someone has finally showed his true colors. and the action sequences in king kong are amazing which could be trimmed so that the movie won't run for 3 hours.
so what now? well, i'm turning 20 this coming year. a whole new decade, a whole new beginning - it's like this is the time when i officially get inducted to the adult world. but i don't dress grown-up enough by today's standards but i don't care about those. i'll wear what i like. i'm still discovering myself little by little. thank God for tiangges and ukay, there are a lot of cheap places to go to to satisfy one's experimentations and tastes. of course, surprises are welcome. a guy in my life would, i guess, be interesting and probably welcome. various opportunities for self-betterment are sought after. i'd like to be able to make a film, to be a better football player, be able perform on stage playing the guitars/keyboards/percs, be a more active leader, a more diligent student and a more critical person. the list of hopes and wishes is long, the coming year is there to make memories out of, time is of importance but it's all in my hands. i'll just have to live it day by day, hour by hour. do with whatever comes along and just keep my head up during high water.
life is immense. the million beings connected by this phenomena have much to share with each other. possibilities are endless.
soar to greater heights and grab opportunities. be a better person this 2006. happy new year! to me and to you who's taken time to absorb this. thanks y'all!
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Saturday, December 31, 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
epiphanies from the days
ang ganda ng night sky. went out just awhile ago. if only you could keep it in a snapshot, forever embedded in one's memory. when you're feeling down, you'll just have to look up and lo and behold, the wonders of the cosmic vastness. wala lang, ang ganda lang talaga kasi.
***
did i say that i was stoned on the night of the lantern parade? we were supposed to watch the umc concert but then, my companions didn't really want to watch. they just wanted to hang out, and with only four of us remaining, it woudn't really be much fun. we were talking about things we wanted to do. i broached the subject of having a good time with some gin. and there we were, formulating a plan. minutes later, we were off to board a jeep that would pass through east ave. so that we could buy some at 7-11, near jo's and ace's house in maaralin st. franco, a subol applicant and binong's (mr. promil kid - galing magpiano nyan!) older brother, was particularly excited about it, especially with the thought that we'll be drinking gsm blu. haven't tasted it before. it was a first time. and it was already close to 9pm by then. he was going to be picked up by his dad by 9.30. anyway, besides all that, he's a great person. he's the only applicant i've been seeing, bearing in mind the fact that i only get to pass by the subol tambayan around 5.30 pm during tuesdays. and he was with the subolites during the lantern parade. he's really bonding with the members which is really great. and since i got to know him when we were all walking towards the shopping center for dinner, i can say he's a great person to talk to. i don't think there'll be a boring time with him. and with this new intimacy with a new person, there goes my defensive/coward attitude again. i tried to distance myself from him some moments afterwards.
now to continue with the more significant story... we had orange juice with the gsm blu, a perfect mix and then some boy bawang and munchers, a brand of green peas he strongly recommended. and i'm recommending it to you, too. sarap! we were through with the whole bottle 30 minutes later. just in time for franco's dad to come by and pick him up. i was into the 4th round at ang lakas na ng tama ko. grabe iba talaga. ang lakas! pulang-pula pa ako. mas heightened ang senses. you feel the coldness in the cold sweat of the juice container, the rubbery feel of my slippers, everything... i passed on the next round and had one during the last. i guess there was about 6-7 rounds. afterwards, i just wanted to lie. ace was still watching programs on gma while jo was already upstairs. i eventually went up to the room. both jo and i are having massive headaches and we were telling each other stuffs we don't normally talk about when sober. yeah, drunk again... tagal ko na ring di umiinom. the whole first sem, there was no opportunity for drinking. na-miss ko. pero grabe, di ko talaga kinaya iyong sakit ng ulo. di ako nakauwi. slept there. i woke up early in the morning. naumpisahan ko pang basahin iyong american gods ni kuya jeff which he hasn't read yet. interesting the book sobra. love his storytelling. hooray for neil gaiman!
***
the next day, i dropped by the tiangge at the chapel for the bilin of my bros. i wasn't able to buy everything at the tiangges at the acad oval. after a morning of trying to fix the things i'm bringing home, i had lunch and then tried my luck at looking for the tiangges at the acad oval. well, wala na nga talaga sila doon so i walked back. ayos lang iyon kasi i got to exercise for a bit before getting to the tiangges. i bought a pair of dangling earrings - a single-stranded bead column of around 4 colors - for P10. see how inexpensive trinkets and holiday presents can get? ang galing ng mga tiangge. maganda na nga, mura pa. i can say the same for greenhills. napadpad ako dun to look for something to wear to the up cinema ball. boho heaven siya... pero i only got to buy a pair of slippers like those of alessa's. hours of walking around for nothing much. pero okey kasi ang dami kong nakita mga bagong designs at styles. ang galing talaga. tiangges can be the solution to almost anything - to household equipments, uber hip clothes, school stuffs, toys, fashion accessories, etc.
***
helter skelter is a song from the beatles' white album. here's the lyrics:
when i get to the bottom, i go back to the top or the slide
where i stop and i turn and i go for a ride
till i get to the bottom and i see you again
do you, don't you want me to love you
i'm coming down fast but i'm miles above you
tell me tell me tell me come on tell me the answer
you may be a lover but you ain't no dancer
helter skelter, helter skelter
helter skelter
do you, don't you want me to love you
i'm coming down fast but i'm miles above you
tell me tell me tell me come on tell me the answer
you may be a lover but you ain't no dancer
look out helter skelter, helter skelter
helter skelter
look out, case here she comes
why this song? well, there's this movie helter skelter that i got to watch during the weekend. it's an adaptation of the real-life murders of la bianca/tate. the latter, sharon tate, is the 8-months old pregnant of wife of director roman polanski. at the forefront of these brutal killings is one man: charles manson. he is head of the family and he is regarded as jesus by the members of the family. his character was effectively portrayed. his manner, the way he speaks and most everything else about him exudes his charisma and his statements about life can really inspire people, leading them to his side. but behind all the inspiring words is a twisted mind bent on conquering the world. he says that's the message that's been given to him by the beatles through that song, as well as the entire white album, and the bible. they intend to incite violence between blacks and whites. meanwhile, the family will go into hiding in the desert. when the war starts they'll be safe there. and after there's been a winner, they're gonna emerge from the desert and defeat those who were triumphant in their initial war. and that's when they'll get to rule the world. twisted, demented, outrageously brutal. going about murdering people and then writing messages on the walls. it took months before police from different states got to connect all the murders happening in their jurisdiction. pretty explosive. and really saddening especially to the families of the murder victims, the least of which is director roman polanski. i wonder what the beatles had to say about this, particularly john lennon. i recently learned that he was alive until december 1980. and all the shooter had to say after doing the act was "I shot john lennon." there are many aspects about the guy i also learned just recently. but there, i just want to know his view regarding the white album and charles manson's claims of world domination as the message of the album.
***
ang saya siguro nung feeling na nai-express mo lahat ng nafi-feel mo on a certain moment or your views on a certain thing. hell, it would be great if you've got your mind made up over many things. hindi kasi ako ganoon. i could run out of things to say. i'm often undecided or i haven't thought things over about present situations regarding myself. hindi ako critical mag-isip. tinatamad pa akong isipin ang ilang bagay na gusto kong mahanapan ng sagot. iyong mga nadidiscover ko tungkol sa akin, usually spontaneous iyon. napapaisip, napupunta sa iba't-ibang direksyon ang utak ko at voila! epiphany. hindi conscious effort. so well, what's the point?
i finally got to watch before sunset although hindi ko siya naumpisahan. ang galing ng connection ng characters ni julie delpy and ethan hawke. after 10 years, most things haven't changed. binitin tayo dun sa prequel na before sunrise. now, involved na sila sa iba't-ibang tao. may asawa na si ethan with a kid, julie has a bf she doesn't see often. pero when they talk - actually si julie usually gumagawa nun - andun pa rin iyong connection. may spontaneity. ang galing. anything and everything ang napag-uusapan. ang cute pala nung waltz ni kinanta ni julie for ethan. the actress herself wrote and composed it. it was really cute and really nice. ang galing niya. imagine, only two characters for a two-hour movie and yet you've got their chemistry and the movie goes on, taking the viewer through the ups and downs of their emotions and the changes in their lives. and once more, binitin uli tayo. ethan may or may not have missed that flight. ang galing nung last shot. ethan smiling while julie was imitating nina simone when she performs. then she says he's gonna miss his flight. and he says he will and he smiles - a smile that beams of happiness and contentment right then and there. ang ganda. if only nagkatuluyan na sila noon pa. pero sobrang galing talaga. i love it! sino nga uli director? here's to more character-driven films and spontaneous conversations of the absurd and the mundane.
***
btw, my monitor's still horrible. the only effective color/shade here is black. and look at my blog at http://funkysoul.blogspot.com - it's orange! this is supposed to be brown.
well, it's already 10:13 am. almost an hour typing all this out. i love this release. i love to write. i love my blog. i love the people who read it and extract a little of me bit by bit of information that i give out. super galing ng technology. now, i can write better and faster. naiiwan pa rin ang ilang sinusulat ko sa aking mga naiisip pero at least, mas madali na silang habulin ngayon. hindi madalas na magasawa akong mag-type dahil fresh pa iyong mga sinusulat ko, unlike sa sulat-kamay na ang layo ng narating ng isip mo, nasa unang destinasyon pa lang ang sinusulat mo.
did i say that i was stoned on the night of the lantern parade? we were supposed to watch the umc concert but then, my companions didn't really want to watch. they just wanted to hang out, and with only four of us remaining, it woudn't really be much fun. we were talking about things we wanted to do. i broached the subject of having a good time with some gin. and there we were, formulating a plan. minutes later, we were off to board a jeep that would pass through east ave. so that we could buy some at 7-11, near jo's and ace's house in maaralin st. franco, a subol applicant and binong's (mr. promil kid - galing magpiano nyan!) older brother, was particularly excited about it, especially with the thought that we'll be drinking gsm blu. haven't tasted it before. it was a first time. and it was already close to 9pm by then. he was going to be picked up by his dad by 9.30. anyway, besides all that, he's a great person. he's the only applicant i've been seeing, bearing in mind the fact that i only get to pass by the subol tambayan around 5.30 pm during tuesdays. and he was with the subolites during the lantern parade. he's really bonding with the members which is really great. and since i got to know him when we were all walking towards the shopping center for dinner, i can say he's a great person to talk to. i don't think there'll be a boring time with him. and with this new intimacy with a new person, there goes my defensive/coward attitude again. i tried to distance myself from him some moments afterwards.
now to continue with the more significant story... we had orange juice with the gsm blu, a perfect mix and then some boy bawang and munchers, a brand of green peas he strongly recommended. and i'm recommending it to you, too. sarap! we were through with the whole bottle 30 minutes later. just in time for franco's dad to come by and pick him up. i was into the 4th round at ang lakas na ng tama ko. grabe iba talaga. ang lakas! pulang-pula pa ako. mas heightened ang senses. you feel the coldness in the cold sweat of the juice container, the rubbery feel of my slippers, everything... i passed on the next round and had one during the last. i guess there was about 6-7 rounds. afterwards, i just wanted to lie. ace was still watching programs on gma while jo was already upstairs. i eventually went up to the room. both jo and i are having massive headaches and we were telling each other stuffs we don't normally talk about when sober. yeah, drunk again... tagal ko na ring di umiinom. the whole first sem, there was no opportunity for drinking. na-miss ko. pero grabe, di ko talaga kinaya iyong sakit ng ulo. di ako nakauwi. slept there. i woke up early in the morning. naumpisahan ko pang basahin iyong american gods ni kuya jeff which he hasn't read yet. interesting the book sobra. love his storytelling. hooray for neil gaiman!
the next day, i dropped by the tiangge at the chapel for the bilin of my bros. i wasn't able to buy everything at the tiangges at the acad oval. after a morning of trying to fix the things i'm bringing home, i had lunch and then tried my luck at looking for the tiangges at the acad oval. well, wala na nga talaga sila doon so i walked back. ayos lang iyon kasi i got to exercise for a bit before getting to the tiangges. i bought a pair of dangling earrings - a single-stranded bead column of around 4 colors - for P10. see how inexpensive trinkets and holiday presents can get? ang galing ng mga tiangge. maganda na nga, mura pa. i can say the same for greenhills. napadpad ako dun to look for something to wear to the up cinema ball. boho heaven siya... pero i only got to buy a pair of slippers like those of alessa's. hours of walking around for nothing much. pero okey kasi ang dami kong nakita mga bagong designs at styles. ang galing talaga. tiangges can be the solution to almost anything - to household equipments, uber hip clothes, school stuffs, toys, fashion accessories, etc.
helter skelter is a song from the beatles' white album. here's the lyrics:
when i get to the bottom, i go back to the top or the slide
where i stop and i turn and i go for a ride
till i get to the bottom and i see you again
do you, don't you want me to love you
i'm coming down fast but i'm miles above you
tell me tell me tell me come on tell me the answer
you may be a lover but you ain't no dancer
helter skelter, helter skelter
helter skelter
do you, don't you want me to love you
i'm coming down fast but i'm miles above you
tell me tell me tell me come on tell me the answer
you may be a lover but you ain't no dancer
look out helter skelter, helter skelter
helter skelter
look out, case here she comes
why this song? well, there's this movie helter skelter that i got to watch during the weekend. it's an adaptation of the real-life murders of la bianca/tate. the latter, sharon tate, is the 8-months old pregnant of wife of director roman polanski. at the forefront of these brutal killings is one man: charles manson. he is head of the family and he is regarded as jesus by the members of the family. his character was effectively portrayed. his manner, the way he speaks and most everything else about him exudes his charisma and his statements about life can really inspire people, leading them to his side. but behind all the inspiring words is a twisted mind bent on conquering the world. he says that's the message that's been given to him by the beatles through that song, as well as the entire white album, and the bible. they intend to incite violence between blacks and whites. meanwhile, the family will go into hiding in the desert. when the war starts they'll be safe there. and after there's been a winner, they're gonna emerge from the desert and defeat those who were triumphant in their initial war. and that's when they'll get to rule the world. twisted, demented, outrageously brutal. going about murdering people and then writing messages on the walls. it took months before police from different states got to connect all the murders happening in their jurisdiction. pretty explosive. and really saddening especially to the families of the murder victims, the least of which is director roman polanski. i wonder what the beatles had to say about this, particularly john lennon. i recently learned that he was alive until december 1980. and all the shooter had to say after doing the act was "I shot john lennon." there are many aspects about the guy i also learned just recently. but there, i just want to know his view regarding the white album and charles manson's claims of world domination as the message of the album.
ang saya siguro nung feeling na nai-express mo lahat ng nafi-feel mo on a certain moment or your views on a certain thing. hell, it would be great if you've got your mind made up over many things. hindi kasi ako ganoon. i could run out of things to say. i'm often undecided or i haven't thought things over about present situations regarding myself. hindi ako critical mag-isip. tinatamad pa akong isipin ang ilang bagay na gusto kong mahanapan ng sagot. iyong mga nadidiscover ko tungkol sa akin, usually spontaneous iyon. napapaisip, napupunta sa iba't-ibang direksyon ang utak ko at voila! epiphany. hindi conscious effort. so well, what's the point?
i finally got to watch before sunset although hindi ko siya naumpisahan. ang galing ng connection ng characters ni julie delpy and ethan hawke. after 10 years, most things haven't changed. binitin tayo dun sa prequel na before sunrise. now, involved na sila sa iba't-ibang tao. may asawa na si ethan with a kid, julie has a bf she doesn't see often. pero when they talk - actually si julie usually gumagawa nun - andun pa rin iyong connection. may spontaneity. ang galing. anything and everything ang napag-uusapan. ang cute pala nung waltz ni kinanta ni julie for ethan. the actress herself wrote and composed it. it was really cute and really nice. ang galing niya. imagine, only two characters for a two-hour movie and yet you've got their chemistry and the movie goes on, taking the viewer through the ups and downs of their emotions and the changes in their lives. and once more, binitin uli tayo. ethan may or may not have missed that flight. ang galing nung last shot. ethan smiling while julie was imitating nina simone when she performs. then she says he's gonna miss his flight. and he says he will and he smiles - a smile that beams of happiness and contentment right then and there. ang ganda. if only nagkatuluyan na sila noon pa. pero sobrang galing talaga. i love it! sino nga uli director? here's to more character-driven films and spontaneous conversations of the absurd and the mundane.
btw, my monitor's still horrible. the only effective color/shade here is black. and look at my blog at http://funkysoul.blogspot.com - it's orange! this is supposed to be brown.
well, it's already 10:13 am. almost an hour typing all this out. i love this release. i love to write. i love my blog. i love the people who read it and extract a little of me bit by bit of information that i give out. super galing ng technology. now, i can write better and faster. naiiwan pa rin ang ilang sinusulat ko sa aking mga naiisip pero at least, mas madali na silang habulin ngayon. hindi madalas na magasawa akong mag-type dahil fresh pa iyong mga sinusulat ko, unlike sa sulat-kamay na ang layo ng narating ng isip mo, nasa unang destinasyon pa lang ang sinusulat mo.
Monday, December 19, 2005
old family pics
procrastinator forever... anyway, here's some pics which have been lying in my drafts for two months already. toddler/baby pics of me and my siblings.
that's me in our balcony. this house is at least as old as i am.
my second to the last sibling, the older of the two boys.
my youngest bro.
karen was really chubby when she was younger. and so are most of us.
another pic of mine, this time younger. this pic was taken back in binmaley when this house was still being constructed.
an old family pic taken during christmas day.
that's me in our balcony. this house is at least as old as i am.
my second to the last sibling, the older of the two boys.
my youngest bro.
karen was really chubby when she was younger. and so are most of us.
another pic of mine, this time younger. this pic was taken back in binmaley when this house was still being constructed.
an old family pic taken during christmas day.
Sunday, December 18, 2005
frustrating whiteness ng monitor
kakafrustrate naman 'to. wala akong makita dito sa tinatype ko. iyong cursor lang po. kung bakit naman kasi bigla na lang nasira iyong video card. tuloy pati mga kulay at graphics dito sa pc, tsaka iyong mga ilang texts tulad nito, di ko makita. aarrgghh... mag-eenjoy pa naman sana ako sa pagtingin ng mga pics at pagsusurf ng net tapos eto, wala akong makitang matino sa monitor ko.
wala ang contrast. masyadong bright ang lahat, pati kulay, halos white na lahat.
magkano ba kasi ang video card? alam niyo ba? sinong pwedeng bigyan na lang ako ng libre?
wala ang contrast. masyadong bright ang lahat, pati kulay, halos white na lahat.
magkano ba kasi ang video card? alam niyo ba? sinong pwedeng bigyan na lang ako ng libre?
traditions
traditions do have a lot of the brighter side of life in them. for one, you anticipate things to happen; you wait for that certain time of day or month or year
so that you could experience whatever is traditionally done/celebrated on that
certain day.
christmas is one of those traditions that most everyone looks forward to. of course,
for most, it's the season of gift-giving. for the students, especially those in
college, it's something to look forward to because after the brief second sem, it's time for another break. and besides, christmas has been tradiiton in our country. no
christmas would be complete without the food and the fun that accompanies the celebration.
the up community has its own share of christmas tradition. the last week of classes
is dotted with events that have been synonymous with up life. there's the apo
fraternity's oblation run (one i haven't watched yet but i have had the
inconvenience of seeing some guy's balls last year at that same event although i wasn't going to watch it). there's also the eng'g week, the highlights of which are
the acoustic jam eng'g, smokers' night and of course, ms. eng'g. theirs is really a
very vibrant, not to mention very active, college.
and then there's the lantern parade. for years, the college of fine arts has been
participating in this lantern parade but is no longer up for the various awards
given to deserving lanterns and their respective colleges. given the fact that
they're from FA, it's no surprise that they're already in the hall of fame of
Lantern Parade winners so they just might as well strut their stuff and be
acknowledged as the best among the lanterns, and in doing so give the other colleges
a chance to shine.
massive budget cuts on education has greatly affected the conduct of everyday
activities in a state college such as up. and so is the budget for this year's
christmas celebration. so there will no longer be lanterns for each college. the
college of fine arts will lead the parade with the theme earth, air, water, fire -
the so-called four elements - and then pick up the parols from the booths in the
acad oval as the parade continues on to quezon hall. that's what's said in the email
that's been circulating. nevertheless, not every college is required to make one so
ours didn't have one due to lack of money.
well, this is the first time that i've been able to watch a complete lantern parade.
i've seen all the lanterns go by. it actually started quite early, i guess around 4
pm because darkness has not yet set in. when it ended, it was dark already.
there were a lot of tiangges in the acad oval. you could buy a lot with P100 there,
especially with the earrings, necklaces, etc. which could cost P20 and below.
besides being able to watch the whole lantern parade, i also completely enjoyed the
christmas celebrations here in up. that's because i can say i've been able to
participate in most of the celebrations. enjoying the acad oval is one way, though i
got into it late; like it was thursday already, the last day, when it has been
carless since monday. many people complained about it though but it's a great thing
that was done. yes, enjoying it is one thing. being with people close to your heart
is another. well, this gives me ideas for another topic i've been wanting to burst
about but i won't do it here. till the next post.
so that you could experience whatever is traditionally done/celebrated on that
certain day.
christmas is one of those traditions that most everyone looks forward to. of course,
for most, it's the season of gift-giving. for the students, especially those in
college, it's something to look forward to because after the brief second sem, it's time for another break. and besides, christmas has been tradiiton in our country. no
christmas would be complete without the food and the fun that accompanies the celebration.
the up community has its own share of christmas tradition. the last week of classes
is dotted with events that have been synonymous with up life. there's the apo
fraternity's oblation run (one i haven't watched yet but i have had the
inconvenience of seeing some guy's balls last year at that same event although i wasn't going to watch it). there's also the eng'g week, the highlights of which are
the acoustic jam eng'g, smokers' night and of course, ms. eng'g. theirs is really a
very vibrant, not to mention very active, college.
and then there's the lantern parade. for years, the college of fine arts has been
participating in this lantern parade but is no longer up for the various awards
given to deserving lanterns and their respective colleges. given the fact that
they're from FA, it's no surprise that they're already in the hall of fame of
Lantern Parade winners so they just might as well strut their stuff and be
acknowledged as the best among the lanterns, and in doing so give the other colleges
a chance to shine.
massive budget cuts on education has greatly affected the conduct of everyday
activities in a state college such as up. and so is the budget for this year's
christmas celebration. so there will no longer be lanterns for each college. the
college of fine arts will lead the parade with the theme earth, air, water, fire -
the so-called four elements - and then pick up the parols from the booths in the
acad oval as the parade continues on to quezon hall. that's what's said in the email
that's been circulating. nevertheless, not every college is required to make one so
ours didn't have one due to lack of money.
well, this is the first time that i've been able to watch a complete lantern parade.
i've seen all the lanterns go by. it actually started quite early, i guess around 4
pm because darkness has not yet set in. when it ended, it was dark already.
there were a lot of tiangges in the acad oval. you could buy a lot with P100 there,
especially with the earrings, necklaces, etc. which could cost P20 and below.
besides being able to watch the whole lantern parade, i also completely enjoyed the
christmas celebrations here in up. that's because i can say i've been able to
participate in most of the celebrations. enjoying the acad oval is one way, though i
got into it late; like it was thursday already, the last day, when it has been
carless since monday. many people complained about it though but it's a great thing
that was done. yes, enjoying it is one thing. being with people close to your heart
is another. well, this gives me ideas for another topic i've been wanting to burst
about but i won't do it here. till the next post.
Monday, December 12, 2005
isang komplikasyon
one more time. one last post (yehey! tapos ko na rin ang asignatura). ang tagal ko nang gustong isulat ito e. now, concentrate.... **
hindi naman bulletproof ang aking mga mata;
paglingon ko, may nakitang pamilyar na mukha.
hindi matanto kung saan nakita,
inabot nang ilang segundo bago makuha.
at sa gaanoong tagal na panahon,
nagtititigan tayo.
aba kilala pala natin ang isa't-isa.
hindi man sa pangalan, sa mukha nga lang.
hindi rin naman tayo nag-uusap dati
pero ramdam natin kapag nandiyan ang isa.
ang titigang ito - ilang beses nang nangyari.
ngayon, matapos ang ilang buwan
nagkita uli tayo.
may patutunguhan ba ito?
o hanggang titigan na lang talaga.
**
ang panget! hindi ito ang gusto ko. pero since may naisulat na, ipo-post na rin. pero hindi ko gusto iyong kinalabasan ng effort na ito. some other time uli. hindi talaga niya nakuha ang emosyon ko sa topic na iyon. basta.. it's kinda complicated. kailangan talaga may ganoon sa buhay.
hindi naman bulletproof ang aking mga mata;
paglingon ko, may nakitang pamilyar na mukha.
hindi matanto kung saan nakita,
inabot nang ilang segundo bago makuha.
at sa gaanoong tagal na panahon,
nagtititigan tayo.
aba kilala pala natin ang isa't-isa.
hindi man sa pangalan, sa mukha nga lang.
hindi rin naman tayo nag-uusap dati
pero ramdam natin kapag nandiyan ang isa.
ang titigang ito - ilang beses nang nangyari.
ngayon, matapos ang ilang buwan
nagkita uli tayo.
may patutunguhan ba ito?
o hanggang titigan na lang talaga.
**
ang panget! hindi ito ang gusto ko. pero since may naisulat na, ipo-post na rin. pero hindi ko gusto iyong kinalabasan ng effort na ito. some other time uli. hindi talaga niya nakuha ang emosyon ko sa topic na iyon. basta.. it's kinda complicated. kailangan talaga may ganoon sa buhay.
tapos na ang haggardness!
yes, exams are over! although first week come january, i think i already have two lined up. at least, the rest of the week will be smooth sailing already.
ang saya-saya talaga nang tapos na ang mga exams. pero siyempre, hindi masaya ang results pero at least ayus na. makakatulog na ako nang maayos tonight. ay! basta pala matapos ko iyong assignment sa 125 na siyang ipinunta ko dito sa computer shop. a blessing this computer shop is. for only P20 you get an hour of good surfing speed with an all Windows pc (as well as ms office - you know naman how hard it is to work with the open source applications; they're just not the same) and headphones for better listening experience.
now, enough of the pcs here. so many stimuli! i'm listening and at times viewing videos at launch. and what a consistent treat they're showing me right now. after mr. big's to be with you, i viewed/listened to a long walk, cornflake girl, a new song by rob thomas, oceania by bjork (visual candy, mind you) and now black balloon.
but this is not the main topic of my post. actually, there are more things boiling beneath this. haha!
well, as luck would have it, saw him again. yihee! at the library. even heard him speak lots of times. i was browsing in the same section of the lib as he was and he was speaking to some people at the tables, walking back and forth the shelves and the table saying comments.
he was also hurriedly browsing through a newspaper afterwards. anyway, it was nearing 4:45 pm already, our college lib's self-proclaimed closing time (read: time for everyone to get out and away!) and so after photocopying some pages i needed (this reminds me, i have to rush this or i won't be able to make my assignment), i got out. contemplated looking for ate joyce inside the college building but decided against it. saw her at the fishball stand. and she treated me to fishball. and there, not trying to be obvious but obviously caught in the act of trying to hide something, i learned his name. ate joyce is a 5th year already, of the 01 batch and his student number starts with 00. so obviously, older. anyway, ate joyce said he was repeating his thesis. too bad, pero hmmm... not too bad. at least, (an) extended semester/s for me. hehe.. selfish. pero tang-ina, ito na nga lang kasiyahan ko sa buhay. pagbigyan na. malay natin... wishful thinking =)
alam ko na ang nickname niya. iyon lang kasi sigurado ni ate joyce.
then she was gonna go to the sunken garden to speak with ate sandra. went with her, at nainggit ako sa mga andun na maglalaro. btw, the sikad girls were 2nd place in the tournament held yesterday. ang galing! gusto ko na ring maglaro. pero futsal iyon. at haggard sa pag-akyat at pagbaba ng field gaya ng nangyari kay candy. this reminds me, i need a soccer-related artwork quick.
then after making kuwento with the peeps, uwi na rin si ate joyce so sumabay na ako. so napunta kami sa may balara and ate some isaw. grabe na-miss ko iyon. galing. sayang, ngayon ko lang nakasama si ate joyce.
may isa pa akong ikukuwento pero hindi fit sa mood nito. another post na lang. and i need to finish those fatty acids quick hehe...
ang saya-saya talaga nang tapos na ang mga exams. pero siyempre, hindi masaya ang results pero at least ayus na. makakatulog na ako nang maayos tonight. ay! basta pala matapos ko iyong assignment sa 125 na siyang ipinunta ko dito sa computer shop. a blessing this computer shop is. for only P20 you get an hour of good surfing speed with an all Windows pc (as well as ms office - you know naman how hard it is to work with the open source applications; they're just not the same) and headphones for better listening experience.
now, enough of the pcs here. so many stimuli! i'm listening and at times viewing videos at launch. and what a consistent treat they're showing me right now. after mr. big's to be with you, i viewed/listened to a long walk, cornflake girl, a new song by rob thomas, oceania by bjork (visual candy, mind you) and now black balloon.
but this is not the main topic of my post. actually, there are more things boiling beneath this. haha!
well, as luck would have it, saw him again. yihee! at the library. even heard him speak lots of times. i was browsing in the same section of the lib as he was and he was speaking to some people at the tables, walking back and forth the shelves and the table saying comments.
he was also hurriedly browsing through a newspaper afterwards. anyway, it was nearing 4:45 pm already, our college lib's self-proclaimed closing time (read: time for everyone to get out and away!) and so after photocopying some pages i needed (this reminds me, i have to rush this or i won't be able to make my assignment), i got out. contemplated looking for ate joyce inside the college building but decided against it. saw her at the fishball stand. and she treated me to fishball. and there, not trying to be obvious but obviously caught in the act of trying to hide something, i learned his name. ate joyce is a 5th year already, of the 01 batch and his student number starts with 00. so obviously, older. anyway, ate joyce said he was repeating his thesis. too bad, pero hmmm... not too bad. at least, (an) extended semester/s for me. hehe.. selfish. pero tang-ina, ito na nga lang kasiyahan ko sa buhay. pagbigyan na. malay natin... wishful thinking =)
alam ko na ang nickname niya. iyon lang kasi sigurado ni ate joyce.
then she was gonna go to the sunken garden to speak with ate sandra. went with her, at nainggit ako sa mga andun na maglalaro. btw, the sikad girls were 2nd place in the tournament held yesterday. ang galing! gusto ko na ring maglaro. pero futsal iyon. at haggard sa pag-akyat at pagbaba ng field gaya ng nangyari kay candy. this reminds me, i need a soccer-related artwork quick.
then after making kuwento with the peeps, uwi na rin si ate joyce so sumabay na ako. so napunta kami sa may balara and ate some isaw. grabe na-miss ko iyon. galing. sayang, ngayon ko lang nakasama si ate joyce.
may isa pa akong ikukuwento pero hindi fit sa mood nito. another post na lang. and i need to finish those fatty acids quick hehe...
Thursday, December 8, 2005
pahabol for today
pahabol!
got this from findyourfate.com. natuwa ba? anyhoo,
DESTINY NUMBER : 3
You are always courageous to rise to great heights. But situations around you so take shape that inspite of your desire you cannot do so without facing obstacles.But your ability to prevail over your obstacles is worthy of emulation. Your creativity and talent for self expression can never be praised enough.
Generally you are not adept at handling money.Your excessive generosity may lead to financial crisis.Thus hard earned money saved and accumulated over years may be wiped out in a matter of days.Hence it would be in your own interests if you analyse the ways the money is spent and take measures to rectify your mistakes.
Healthwise you are average . You may have to suffer from belly troubles, indigestion, gastric problems etc.
You may shine well if you are aware of your talent for self-expression and the ability to think differently in any given situation.However much depends on the efforts you make to govern your temperament.
*** ang cute ng styrosnow ng eheads! - thanks juicyjulius! mukhang interesting din ang fruitcake book - salamat mortel! ***
got this from findyourfate.com. natuwa ba? anyhoo,
DESTINY NUMBER : 3
You are always courageous to rise to great heights. But situations around you so take shape that inspite of your desire you cannot do so without facing obstacles.But your ability to prevail over your obstacles is worthy of emulation. Your creativity and talent for self expression can never be praised enough.
Generally you are not adept at handling money.Your excessive generosity may lead to financial crisis.Thus hard earned money saved and accumulated over years may be wiped out in a matter of days.Hence it would be in your own interests if you analyse the ways the money is spent and take measures to rectify your mistakes.
Healthwise you are average . You may have to suffer from belly troubles, indigestion, gastric problems etc.
You may shine well if you are aware of your talent for self-expression and the ability to think differently in any given situation.However much depends on the efforts you make to govern your temperament.
*** ang cute ng styrosnow ng eheads! - thanks juicyjulius! mukhang interesting din ang fruitcake book - salamat mortel! ***
buenas noches
it's been raining almost the whole day. didn't see a ray of sunlight. the temperature and temperament it brings about in me reminds me of the coming holidays. it's almost this same mood, without the rains though. and yeah, i'm looking forward to christmas. something new for this year. something fun and intimate and joyous.
things i've done for the past month or so:
- watched the fourth harry potter movie. twas' alright. the scene where he came back with cedric's dead body to the pitch cried out to me. i could feel his anger and sadness. besides that, you thought he, ron and hermione are old enough already. but against the other champions, harry is still very young. cedric is good looking in some angles. and fred and george are still the perfect tag team!
-got a new pair of umbro soccer shorts from muroy, on a monday the week i started training again. i used it on wednesday though, hehe. it's reversible, by the way. blue and pink!
- watched DUP's sepharad. of course, it was required in my comm3 class. i also found arbie watching there, also required in the same class. late takers hehe.
- the POV last friday, december 2 was a success. not only did we fill up the whole cine adarna, there were still people standing or occupying monoblocs. too bad i wasn't able to watch all the films. the ones i did get to watch are "frou frou" - panalo sa comedy - and "anong petsa na?" and they're both great. looking forward to this weekend to be able to watch the others. ang galing talaga ng CINEMAsters. ang galing nina bebs and ace. grabe, gusto ko na rin makagawa ng film ko. concept muna, and then some peeps to help me out and a camera, ok na. go na. mahirap nga lang na part iyong concept.
- dec. 3, watched the women's championship match in football in the 23rd sea games at the marikina sports complex with sikad peeps. buti na lang sumama ako after nung training, although kawawa naman ako, didn't bring any pants so i just reversed the shorts i used haha! ang galing ng vietnam and myanmar! they could vie for the world championships. galing nung mga defense tsaka trapping and dribbling nila. kawawa naman myanmar; vietnam and got a penalty kick (i think that's what it's called) and won the game with 1-0. pero astig, i wanna be able to play like that someday. and after that, i will be playing like ronaldinho hehe.. what if? astig.. by the way in that training, karen and i made a pact that we would be committed to sikad from that day on. yes, sana nga tuloy-tuloy na ito. induction na sa wednesday. i need a soccer-related artwork (of course, that won't come out of thin air - got some brainstorming and hand twisting to do) plus a 30-minute batch presentation. keri sana.. my batchmates are planning to play instruments.
- watched ang pagdadalaga ni maximo oliveros last monday with alessa. it was cute and funny but for me it was on the same level as pepot artista. i was expecting for more but i guess that's the problem with an award-winning film. but it was nice. something new yet close to our cultural context.
***
other thoughts...
*well, got 3 exams on monday: bio 11 lec, bio 11 lab (had a mock exam awhile ago - hope it helps) and math 54. yes, the shock of my life when i learned only last monday when our prof finally arrived that we're gonna be frying our brains on monday. tagal na kasing dinelay ang pag-aaral. ayan tuloy.
*hindi ko na siya nakita uli *turo sa ibaba* mali ako dun sa assumption ko. two times lang, no more. hindi na ako natutuwa pag nakikita ko siya pero ngayon, hmmm, hinahanap ko ang fez niya.
*cinema ball bukas. dress pa lang ang meron ako. how bout footwear? ha! hanapan mamaya hanggang bukas.
*nainggit ako kay marj nung nalaman kong nakapag-shift siya. buti pa siya, nagawa niyang iwanan ang halos tatlong taon sa ba at sinunod ang passion: film. grabe, gusto ko rin ng film. pero there are so many factors, the greatest of which is the financial constraints. besides that, hindi rin ako sure kung mage-excel ako dun. i wanna be sure naman kung nag-shift ako. pero hindi naman talaga ako masaya sa course ko. ang dami-dami ko ngang org, puro varied. hala, gusto ko naman ng specialization.
*physical activity no longer has the same effect on me. i think i need to take it to a higher level. nung last time kong nag-jogging, hindi sumakit katawan ko. kahapon naman, 3-aside iyong game ng girls nung training, minimal lang ang sakit although may pasa ako kasi natamaan ng spikes (walang shin guard). pero dati, masakit na talaga ang katawan sa ganoong activity.
*ukay is great! got a lot of cheap stuff. ang galing!
kailangan ko talagang mag-aral. nasa umpisa pa lang ako sa math. di ko pa na-aapply. so eto na lang muna. uwi muna ako, tapos lalabas para sa meeting. sa mc na lang ako hindi pa nagpapakita. medyo nahihiya na. pero mc squared sa tuesday, punta ako. tapos ep launch ng makopa sa jan 27, aabangan ko iyon.
so happy new year!
things i've done for the past month or so:
- watched the fourth harry potter movie. twas' alright. the scene where he came back with cedric's dead body to the pitch cried out to me. i could feel his anger and sadness. besides that, you thought he, ron and hermione are old enough already. but against the other champions, harry is still very young. cedric is good looking in some angles. and fred and george are still the perfect tag team!
-got a new pair of umbro soccer shorts from muroy, on a monday the week i started training again. i used it on wednesday though, hehe. it's reversible, by the way. blue and pink!
- watched DUP's sepharad. of course, it was required in my comm3 class. i also found arbie watching there, also required in the same class. late takers hehe.
- the POV last friday, december 2 was a success. not only did we fill up the whole cine adarna, there were still people standing or occupying monoblocs. too bad i wasn't able to watch all the films. the ones i did get to watch are "frou frou" - panalo sa comedy - and "anong petsa na?" and they're both great. looking forward to this weekend to be able to watch the others. ang galing talaga ng CINEMAsters. ang galing nina bebs and ace. grabe, gusto ko na rin makagawa ng film ko. concept muna, and then some peeps to help me out and a camera, ok na. go na. mahirap nga lang na part iyong concept.
- dec. 3, watched the women's championship match in football in the 23rd sea games at the marikina sports complex with sikad peeps. buti na lang sumama ako after nung training, although kawawa naman ako, didn't bring any pants so i just reversed the shorts i used haha! ang galing ng vietnam and myanmar! they could vie for the world championships. galing nung mga defense tsaka trapping and dribbling nila. kawawa naman myanmar; vietnam and got a penalty kick (i think that's what it's called) and won the game with 1-0. pero astig, i wanna be able to play like that someday. and after that, i will be playing like ronaldinho hehe.. what if? astig.. by the way in that training, karen and i made a pact that we would be committed to sikad from that day on. yes, sana nga tuloy-tuloy na ito. induction na sa wednesday. i need a soccer-related artwork (of course, that won't come out of thin air - got some brainstorming and hand twisting to do) plus a 30-minute batch presentation. keri sana.. my batchmates are planning to play instruments.
- watched ang pagdadalaga ni maximo oliveros last monday with alessa. it was cute and funny but for me it was on the same level as pepot artista. i was expecting for more but i guess that's the problem with an award-winning film. but it was nice. something new yet close to our cultural context.
other thoughts...
*well, got 3 exams on monday: bio 11 lec, bio 11 lab (had a mock exam awhile ago - hope it helps) and math 54. yes, the shock of my life when i learned only last monday when our prof finally arrived that we're gonna be frying our brains on monday. tagal na kasing dinelay ang pag-aaral. ayan tuloy.
*hindi ko na siya nakita uli *turo sa ibaba* mali ako dun sa assumption ko. two times lang, no more. hindi na ako natutuwa pag nakikita ko siya pero ngayon, hmmm, hinahanap ko ang fez niya.
*cinema ball bukas. dress pa lang ang meron ako. how bout footwear? ha! hanapan mamaya hanggang bukas.
*nainggit ako kay marj nung nalaman kong nakapag-shift siya. buti pa siya, nagawa niyang iwanan ang halos tatlong taon sa ba at sinunod ang passion: film. grabe, gusto ko rin ng film. pero there are so many factors, the greatest of which is the financial constraints. besides that, hindi rin ako sure kung mage-excel ako dun. i wanna be sure naman kung nag-shift ako. pero hindi naman talaga ako masaya sa course ko. ang dami-dami ko ngang org, puro varied. hala, gusto ko naman ng specialization.
*physical activity no longer has the same effect on me. i think i need to take it to a higher level. nung last time kong nag-jogging, hindi sumakit katawan ko. kahapon naman, 3-aside iyong game ng girls nung training, minimal lang ang sakit although may pasa ako kasi natamaan ng spikes (walang shin guard). pero dati, masakit na talaga ang katawan sa ganoong activity.
*ukay is great! got a lot of cheap stuff. ang galing!
kailangan ko talagang mag-aral. nasa umpisa pa lang ako sa math. di ko pa na-aapply. so eto na lang muna. uwi muna ako, tapos lalabas para sa meeting. sa mc na lang ako hindi pa nagpapakita. medyo nahihiya na. pero mc squared sa tuesday, punta ako. tapos ep launch ng makopa sa jan 27, aabangan ko iyon.
so happy new year!
Wednesday, December 7, 2005
simply the best
more reasons why ronaldinho is so good (besides the fact that he's an amazing player already)!
*
can you believe this? the galacticos are upstood by moreira. and fans of the galacticos can't help but applaud. :)
Madrid bewitched by Ronaldinho
By Sid Lowe in Madrid
(Filed: 21/11/2005)
An hour into the 151st Real Madrid versus Barcelona 'derbi', the Santiago Bernabeu rose to applaud a moment of genius from a footballer in gold-encrusted boots. Eighteen minutes later they were on their feet again, lauding another sumptuously executed goal from the same man.
Nothing unusual there, of course - only the man they twice treated to an ovation plays his football for Madrid's bitter rivals and had just secured a 3-0 demolition of the galacticos, a historic hammering that could bring drastic consequences.
It is a measure of Ronaldinho's brilliance that even Madridistas felt compelled to applaud, even though he had tormented and humiliated their defence, shattering their illusions. Not since Diego Maradona walked the ball into the net over 20 years ago had the Bernabeu been so wonderfully charmed into submission; sometimes football conquers all.
Ronaldinho, who will be officially named European Footballer of the Year this week, said he would "never forget" the occasion, and nor will those who witnessed a breathtaking display and two stunning goals.
Handed possession inside his own half, the Brazilian raced down the left, the ball never leaving his nimble toes, and skipped effortlessly beyond Sergio Ramos. Ivan Helguera came to meet him, but Ronaldinho simply glided across him. Inside the area now, a quick look to the far post, a dummy with his eyes, and the ball was nestling in the net at the near post, Iker Casillas statuesque.
Out came the toothy grin and at the north end mouths hung open and fans began applauding - timidly at first, then more and more until about a quarter of the 80,000 crowd were clapping; the rest sat in stunned silence.
A little over quarter of an hour later and he collected on the same wing, chose the same victim and got the same result. Surging forward and pulling past Ramos, Ronaldinho slotted a neat finish into the far corner. "Those weren't two goals," team-mate Samuel Eto'o insisted, "they were two wonders, museum pieces."
The contrast to Real Madrid could hardly have been starker. Galacticism is dying a painful death. Barcelona, all quick passing and neat exchanges, were just too good.
Madrid offered nothing - their first shot came on 75 minutes - and Eto'o, the former Real Madrid player subjected to sporadic racist chants, gave Barcelona a flying start, pouncing to poke them one-up.
Only 14 minutes had passed, but Madrid were already beaten. All that remained was Barca to add a suitably classy finish - and Ronaldinho provided it. Just ask the Bernabeu fans who, with a heavy heart, succumbed to his genius.
Match details
Real Madrid (4-4-2): Casillas; Salgado, Helguera, Ramos, Roberto Carlos; Robinho, Beckham, Garcia (Baptista 67), Zidane; Ronaldo, Raul (Guti 58).
Subs: Lopez (g), Bravo, Mejia, Pavon, Diogo.
Booked: Salgado, Robinho, Garcia.
Barcelona (4-3-3): Valdes; Oleguer, Puyol, Marquez, Van Bronckhorst; Edmilson, Xavi, Deco; Messi (Iniesta 70), Eto'o, Ronaldinho.
Subs: Jorquera (g), Silvinho, Gabri, Motta, Giuly, Larsson.
Goals: Eto'o (15), Ronaldinho (59, 77).
Booked: Deco, Ronaldinho.
Referee: I Gonzalez.
Win in Madrid puts Barca top
By Guy Hedgecoe
(Filed: 20/11/2005)
Real Madrid (0) 0 Barcelona (1) 3
Barcelona went top of the Spanish league last night, after humbling arch-rivals Real Madrid 3-0 at the Bernabeu, inspired by Ronaldinho.
Samuel Eto'o gave the visitors the lead after 14 minutes when he spun through a cluster of defenders and placed the ball past goalkeeper Iker Casillas.
In the first half, Barcelona's three-pronged attack of Eto'o, Lionel Messi and Ronaldinho tormented Real repeatedly.
David Beckham, sporting a cut on his nose where Ronaldo had accidently elbowed him in training, sprayed a number of long accurate passes, but Barcelona's defence, policing Ronaldo and Robinho tightly, snuffed out any danger. Real were further frustrated when Robinho received a yellow card for diving in the penalty box.
Ronaldinho repeatedly baffled Real's defenders and almost set up Eto'o up for two further goals, but Casillas denied the Cameroonian both times.
On the hour, Ronaldinho scored his first of the night, galloping half the length of the pitch, checking in the area and stroking calmly past Casillas. His second was almost a repeat of the first.
At 2-0 down, Real finally responded, Robinho immediately sending the ball across the goalmouth, only for Ronaldo to miskick. A minute later Zinedine Zidane drew a save from Victor Valdes.
Real replaced midfielder Pablo Garcia with striker Julio Baptista and it almost paid off, but a strike by Ronaldo was ruled out for offside.
The result was as astonishing as Ronaldinho's performance, but more remarkable was the Bernabeu's resigned applause for the opposition's Brazilian striker, in acknowledgement of a masterclass.
Roy Keane will not be replaced at Manchester United by Michael Ballack, according to his Bayern Munich manager Uli Hoeness. After Bayern won 2-1 at Aminia Bielefeld yesterday without their injured star, Hoeness said: "I know Manchester United will not buy Michael Ballack. This one match doesn't allow any conclusions about whether he is replaceable or not."
Meanwhile former Bayern manager Ottmar Hitzfeld, who took Ballack to the club, has told a German newspaper he has "had an offer" from United and that he is learning English. He has been out of management for 18 months.
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and now, this man is set to vie for another award, that is after the Golden Ball award he already has in his hands.
Ronaldinho wins Golden Ball award
By JEAN-LUC COURTHIAL, Associated Press Writer
November 28, 2005
AP - Nov 28, 2:41 pm EST
PARIS (AP) -- Ronaldinho won the Golden Ball on Monday as European player of the year, another honor for the Brazilian following his FIFA player of the year award last year.
Ronaldinho, a midfielder who won the Spanish league title with Barcelona and the Confederations Cup with Brazil, is the third player from his country to win the Golden Ball following Rivaldo (1999) and Ronaldo (1997, 2002).
Ronaldinho finished ahead of Frank Lampard of Chelsea and Steven Gerrard of Liverpool. Andriy Shevchenko of AC Milan, last year's winner, placed fifth behind Thierry Henry of Arsenal.
"This is a dream come true," Ronaldinho said. "When I see all the names on the list, when I see my idols Ronaldo and Rivaldo, I realize this is a great honor."
Ronaldinho finished with 225 points, followed by Lampard (148) and Gerrard (142). The winner is chosen by France Football magazine's annual poll of 52 journalists from around the world. This is the 50th anniversary of the award, which was first won by England's Stanley Matthews.
Ronaldinho's cunning, speed, power and strength make him one of the most dangerous attacking players. He already has drawn comparisons to Diego Maradona.
"God gives gifts to everyone," Ronaldinho said. "Some can write, some can dance. He gave me the skill to play football and I am making the most of it."
The 25-year-old player joined Barcelona from Paris Saint-Germain in 2003 and has scored 33 league goals in 79 games, including nine this season. He also has scored 13 times in 19 Champions League games for Barcelona.
He has played 62 times for Brazil and scored 27 times. He helped the team win its fifth World Cup title in 2002 in Japan.
Updated on Monday, Nov 28, 2005 2:51 pm EST
Ronaldinho set for another top gong?
Wed Nov 30, 1:22 PM ET
ZURICH (AFP) - Barcelona forward Ronaldinho is in line for another top accolade after football's world ruling body nominated the Brazilian among the contenders for the world player of the year.
Voted the Ballon d'Or (Golden Ball) - Europe's player of the year - in midweek, the 25-year-old silky smooth Ronaldinho is already FIFA's player of the year (2004).
However whether he can again hold of the likes of Chelsea's Frank Lampard and Barcelona teammate Samuel Eto'o of Cameroon remains to be seen.
According to a FIFA statement on Wednesday, the votes have already been counted, and all three above players are in contention for FIFA's prize, the 15th edition of which will be announced on here at the Zurich Opera house on December 19th.
Unlike the Ballon d'Or winner, who is nominated by 52 journalists - one each from UEFA's association countries - the FIFA award is chosen by the coaches and captains of national teams worldwide from a list made up by FIFA.
Women's football will also be honoured. Birgit Prinz, the winner last year, is again in contention.
FIFA's player of the year award has only been held for the past 14 years while the Ballon d'Or - considered by many on the continent as the bona fide footballer's prize - has run since 1956.
Ronaldinho joined the greats of world football on Monday when he won the prize with 225 points, 77 ahead of Lampard.
can you believe this? the galacticos are upstood by moreira. and fans of the galacticos can't help but applaud. :)
Madrid bewitched by Ronaldinho
By Sid Lowe in Madrid
(Filed: 21/11/2005)
An hour into the 151st Real Madrid versus Barcelona 'derbi', the Santiago Bernabeu rose to applaud a moment of genius from a footballer in gold-encrusted boots. Eighteen minutes later they were on their feet again, lauding another sumptuously executed goal from the same man.
Nothing unusual there, of course - only the man they twice treated to an ovation plays his football for Madrid's bitter rivals and had just secured a 3-0 demolition of the galacticos, a historic hammering that could bring drastic consequences.
It is a measure of Ronaldinho's brilliance that even Madridistas felt compelled to applaud, even though he had tormented and humiliated their defence, shattering their illusions. Not since Diego Maradona walked the ball into the net over 20 years ago had the Bernabeu been so wonderfully charmed into submission; sometimes football conquers all.
Ronaldinho, who will be officially named European Footballer of the Year this week, said he would "never forget" the occasion, and nor will those who witnessed a breathtaking display and two stunning goals.
Handed possession inside his own half, the Brazilian raced down the left, the ball never leaving his nimble toes, and skipped effortlessly beyond Sergio Ramos. Ivan Helguera came to meet him, but Ronaldinho simply glided across him. Inside the area now, a quick look to the far post, a dummy with his eyes, and the ball was nestling in the net at the near post, Iker Casillas statuesque.
Out came the toothy grin and at the north end mouths hung open and fans began applauding - timidly at first, then more and more until about a quarter of the 80,000 crowd were clapping; the rest sat in stunned silence.
A little over quarter of an hour later and he collected on the same wing, chose the same victim and got the same result. Surging forward and pulling past Ramos, Ronaldinho slotted a neat finish into the far corner. "Those weren't two goals," team-mate Samuel Eto'o insisted, "they were two wonders, museum pieces."
The contrast to Real Madrid could hardly have been starker. Galacticism is dying a painful death. Barcelona, all quick passing and neat exchanges, were just too good.
Madrid offered nothing - their first shot came on 75 minutes - and Eto'o, the former Real Madrid player subjected to sporadic racist chants, gave Barcelona a flying start, pouncing to poke them one-up.
Only 14 minutes had passed, but Madrid were already beaten. All that remained was Barca to add a suitably classy finish - and Ronaldinho provided it. Just ask the Bernabeu fans who, with a heavy heart, succumbed to his genius.
Match details
Real Madrid (4-4-2): Casillas; Salgado, Helguera, Ramos, Roberto Carlos; Robinho, Beckham, Garcia (Baptista 67), Zidane; Ronaldo, Raul (Guti 58).
Subs: Lopez (g), Bravo, Mejia, Pavon, Diogo.
Booked: Salgado, Robinho, Garcia.
Barcelona (4-3-3): Valdes; Oleguer, Puyol, Marquez, Van Bronckhorst; Edmilson, Xavi, Deco; Messi (Iniesta 70), Eto'o, Ronaldinho.
Subs: Jorquera (g), Silvinho, Gabri, Motta, Giuly, Larsson.
Goals: Eto'o (15), Ronaldinho (59, 77).
Booked: Deco, Ronaldinho.
Referee: I Gonzalez.
Win in Madrid puts Barca top
By Guy Hedgecoe
(Filed: 20/11/2005)
Real Madrid (0) 0 Barcelona (1) 3
Barcelona went top of the Spanish league last night, after humbling arch-rivals Real Madrid 3-0 at the Bernabeu, inspired by Ronaldinho.
Samuel Eto'o gave the visitors the lead after 14 minutes when he spun through a cluster of defenders and placed the ball past goalkeeper Iker Casillas.
In the first half, Barcelona's three-pronged attack of Eto'o, Lionel Messi and Ronaldinho tormented Real repeatedly.
David Beckham, sporting a cut on his nose where Ronaldo had accidently elbowed him in training, sprayed a number of long accurate passes, but Barcelona's defence, policing Ronaldo and Robinho tightly, snuffed out any danger. Real were further frustrated when Robinho received a yellow card for diving in the penalty box.
Ronaldinho repeatedly baffled Real's defenders and almost set up Eto'o up for two further goals, but Casillas denied the Cameroonian both times.
On the hour, Ronaldinho scored his first of the night, galloping half the length of the pitch, checking in the area and stroking calmly past Casillas. His second was almost a repeat of the first.
At 2-0 down, Real finally responded, Robinho immediately sending the ball across the goalmouth, only for Ronaldo to miskick. A minute later Zinedine Zidane drew a save from Victor Valdes.
Real replaced midfielder Pablo Garcia with striker Julio Baptista and it almost paid off, but a strike by Ronaldo was ruled out for offside.
The result was as astonishing as Ronaldinho's performance, but more remarkable was the Bernabeu's resigned applause for the opposition's Brazilian striker, in acknowledgement of a masterclass.
Roy Keane will not be replaced at Manchester United by Michael Ballack, according to his Bayern Munich manager Uli Hoeness. After Bayern won 2-1 at Aminia Bielefeld yesterday without their injured star, Hoeness said: "I know Manchester United will not buy Michael Ballack. This one match doesn't allow any conclusions about whether he is replaceable or not."
Meanwhile former Bayern manager Ottmar Hitzfeld, who took Ballack to the club, has told a German newspaper he has "had an offer" from United and that he is learning English. He has been out of management for 18 months.
and now, this man is set to vie for another award, that is after the Golden Ball award he already has in his hands.
Ronaldinho wins Golden Ball award
By JEAN-LUC COURTHIAL, Associated Press Writer
November 28, 2005
AP - Nov 28, 2:41 pm EST
PARIS (AP) -- Ronaldinho won the Golden Ball on Monday as European player of the year, another honor for the Brazilian following his FIFA player of the year award last year.
Ronaldinho, a midfielder who won the Spanish league title with Barcelona and the Confederations Cup with Brazil, is the third player from his country to win the Golden Ball following Rivaldo (1999) and Ronaldo (1997, 2002).
Ronaldinho finished ahead of Frank Lampard of Chelsea and Steven Gerrard of Liverpool. Andriy Shevchenko of AC Milan, last year's winner, placed fifth behind Thierry Henry of Arsenal.
"This is a dream come true," Ronaldinho said. "When I see all the names on the list, when I see my idols Ronaldo and Rivaldo, I realize this is a great honor."
Ronaldinho finished with 225 points, followed by Lampard (148) and Gerrard (142). The winner is chosen by France Football magazine's annual poll of 52 journalists from around the world. This is the 50th anniversary of the award, which was first won by England's Stanley Matthews.
Ronaldinho's cunning, speed, power and strength make him one of the most dangerous attacking players. He already has drawn comparisons to Diego Maradona.
"God gives gifts to everyone," Ronaldinho said. "Some can write, some can dance. He gave me the skill to play football and I am making the most of it."
The 25-year-old player joined Barcelona from Paris Saint-Germain in 2003 and has scored 33 league goals in 79 games, including nine this season. He also has scored 13 times in 19 Champions League games for Barcelona.
He has played 62 times for Brazil and scored 27 times. He helped the team win its fifth World Cup title in 2002 in Japan.
Updated on Monday, Nov 28, 2005 2:51 pm EST
Ronaldinho set for another top gong?
Wed Nov 30, 1:22 PM ET
ZURICH (AFP) - Barcelona forward Ronaldinho is in line for another top accolade after football's world ruling body nominated the Brazilian among the contenders for the world player of the year.
Voted the Ballon d'Or (Golden Ball) - Europe's player of the year - in midweek, the 25-year-old silky smooth Ronaldinho is already FIFA's player of the year (2004).
However whether he can again hold of the likes of Chelsea's Frank Lampard and Barcelona teammate Samuel Eto'o of Cameroon remains to be seen.
According to a FIFA statement on Wednesday, the votes have already been counted, and all three above players are in contention for FIFA's prize, the 15th edition of which will be announced on here at the Zurich Opera house on December 19th.
Unlike the Ballon d'Or winner, who is nominated by 52 journalists - one each from UEFA's association countries - the FIFA award is chosen by the coaches and captains of national teams worldwide from a list made up by FIFA.
Women's football will also be honoured. Birgit Prinz, the winner last year, is again in contention.
FIFA's player of the year award has only been held for the past 14 years while the Ballon d'Or - considered by many on the continent as the bona fide footballer's prize - has run since 1956.
Ronaldinho joined the greats of world football on Monday when he won the prize with 225 points, 77 ahead of Lampard.
Monday, November 21, 2005
ikaw? oo, kinukuwestiyon ko ang existence mo
grabe, starring ka uli dito sa sinusulat ko. and after all this time, last name pa lang ang nalalaman ko tungkol sa iyo. pure luck lang talaga. kung hindi dahil sa assessment ng form5 e di wala na akong ibang alam tungkol sa iyo. ni hindi ko nga alam kung malapit ka na ring lumisan ng kolehiyo e. pero at least sa pagmamasid-masid ko, may napagtanto din ako.
last sem, nakikita lang kita tuwing miyerkules dahil may klase ako ng 1-4 at may klase kang 4-7. sa martes at biyernes naman kung kailan may klase ako sa kolehiyo e hindi naman kita nakiita. pero pag minsan, tuwing may oras o break ako ng lunes o huwebes at napapadpad ako sa lib, doon kita kahit saglit lang nasisilayan. medyo consistent yong sked na yan last sem although noong patapos na ang klase, medyo nawawala ka na. ngayong sem naman, alam kong may klase ka sa kolehiyo ng 1-2:30 kasi nakita na kitang nakatambay doon nang lunes at huwebes. lucky discovery ang pagkakatuklas kong iyon. kung hindi ako bumalik sa kolehiyo noong huwebes dahil wala akong klase ng hapong iyon (kinuha kasi ng 118 ang 1-4 ng lunes ko), malamang matatagalan pa bago ko malaman iyon. at tama nga ako, nakita nga uli kita kahapon nang hapon. siyempre may klase ako. at hindi ko naman ugaling magpapansin o kung ano. well, siguro iyong lantarang pagpapapansin o pagpapacute ay hindi ko gawain. pero nakikita mo naman ako diba? kilala mo na ako sa mukha.
hay... meron bang patutunguhan tong pag-iisip kong ito? o hanggang alaala ka na lamang na naisusulat ko? wala namang anything remarkable sa iyo to the "discerning female." ako? na-attract lang talaga ako sa iyo noong una kitang makita. hindi pa nga crush iyon noon e, kumbaga i was drawn to you, pero malapit na sa infatuation iyon. hindi ko alam kung kailan nag-evolve iyon. pero pucha, mukhang matindi pa rin ang infatuation na iyon hanggang ngayon. kelan nga ba naging matindi? noong patapos lang ata ang unang semestre. grabe ang impact mo. or at least, ang impact ng pag-iisip ko tungkol sa iyo. pinabalik mo ang period ko haha =)
sana naman magkausap tayo upang kahit papaano'y makilala kita at mahusgaan na itong pagka-infatuated ko sa iyo. astig ka nga bang tao o hindi? iyon kasi ang unang impression ko sa iyo. wala ka namang gaanong kahalubilo sa mga nilalang sa kolehiyo so wala akong ideyo kung anong klaseng tao mga trip mo. o kahit man lang mga taong pwede kong mapagtanungan ng pangalan mo. pero dahil sa fetish kong ito, ayan tuloy, hinahanap-hanap ka ng mga mata ko.
sino ka nga ba ha? para matapos na ang gulong ito.
last sem, nakikita lang kita tuwing miyerkules dahil may klase ako ng 1-4 at may klase kang 4-7. sa martes at biyernes naman kung kailan may klase ako sa kolehiyo e hindi naman kita nakiita. pero pag minsan, tuwing may oras o break ako ng lunes o huwebes at napapadpad ako sa lib, doon kita kahit saglit lang nasisilayan. medyo consistent yong sked na yan last sem although noong patapos na ang klase, medyo nawawala ka na. ngayong sem naman, alam kong may klase ka sa kolehiyo ng 1-2:30 kasi nakita na kitang nakatambay doon nang lunes at huwebes. lucky discovery ang pagkakatuklas kong iyon. kung hindi ako bumalik sa kolehiyo noong huwebes dahil wala akong klase ng hapong iyon (kinuha kasi ng 118 ang 1-4 ng lunes ko), malamang matatagalan pa bago ko malaman iyon. at tama nga ako, nakita nga uli kita kahapon nang hapon. siyempre may klase ako. at hindi ko naman ugaling magpapansin o kung ano. well, siguro iyong lantarang pagpapapansin o pagpapacute ay hindi ko gawain. pero nakikita mo naman ako diba? kilala mo na ako sa mukha.
hay... meron bang patutunguhan tong pag-iisip kong ito? o hanggang alaala ka na lamang na naisusulat ko? wala namang anything remarkable sa iyo to the "discerning female." ako? na-attract lang talaga ako sa iyo noong una kitang makita. hindi pa nga crush iyon noon e, kumbaga i was drawn to you, pero malapit na sa infatuation iyon. hindi ko alam kung kailan nag-evolve iyon. pero pucha, mukhang matindi pa rin ang infatuation na iyon hanggang ngayon. kelan nga ba naging matindi? noong patapos lang ata ang unang semestre. grabe ang impact mo. or at least, ang impact ng pag-iisip ko tungkol sa iyo. pinabalik mo ang period ko haha =)
sana naman magkausap tayo upang kahit papaano'y makilala kita at mahusgaan na itong pagka-infatuated ko sa iyo. astig ka nga bang tao o hindi? iyon kasi ang unang impression ko sa iyo. wala ka namang gaanong kahalubilo sa mga nilalang sa kolehiyo so wala akong ideyo kung anong klaseng tao mga trip mo. o kahit man lang mga taong pwede kong mapagtanungan ng pangalan mo. pero dahil sa fetish kong ito, ayan tuloy, hinahanap-hanap ka ng mga mata ko.
sino ka nga ba ha? para matapos na ang gulong ito.
Friday, November 18, 2005
what's up?
so many things wrong with this blog... for one, there's an extra link for the comments. ahmygawd, need to fix this as soon as possible.
it's been two weeks. yeah, it has. dami na ring nangyari. got to catch up with a lot of peeps. some new classes, new classmates. same faces, same buildings.
got to see my crush twice only. ack! no time for details. just rushing this, just so i could post something new. i got some pics i want to post, though they're from my and my siblings' younger days.
am due for a pictorial tomorrow for up cinema. concept? chicago's mama morton. and then a guy in a tuxedo or if not, a painter although androgynous-looking.
hmm, i'm the only one left. gotta go...
it's been two weeks. yeah, it has. dami na ring nangyari. got to catch up with a lot of peeps. some new classes, new classmates. same faces, same buildings.
got to see my crush twice only. ack! no time for details. just rushing this, just so i could post something new. i got some pics i want to post, though they're from my and my siblings' younger days.
am due for a pictorial tomorrow for up cinema. concept? chicago's mama morton. and then a guy in a tuxedo or if not, a painter although androgynous-looking.
hmm, i'm the only one left. gotta go...
Wednesday, November 2, 2005
disappointed again
lately, my life's been a blur. nothing's happened that's so memorable. in fact, i feel really sorry for myself that i'm sort of wasting away. my thoughts are disorganied but i know they're all linked at some point. this discontinuity disables me from seeing a complete view of my life at this point in time. these days that i haven't been able to write illustrate my disbelief in my life. what's there to write about? there's nothing here that's keeping me alive. literally. or is there? i don't know. right now, this life is one big blurred shape zooming by, no attachments, no color, no end. it just rolls by - no rocks or inclined planes to change its course. why do i feel like this when there has been no disappointment so far? i dunno. sometimes, you know, thinking can be a complete waste of time.
ssssssssstttttttt....
lately, comments have been popping about in my blog. one on my very first post and the two others on my post last christmas. they've probably been searching thru the net using keywords like "getbackers" and "christmas day" before clicking a link landing them in my blog. that's how PULP head writer joey dizon landed in my blog months ago. he read my post on pedicab's song "dizzy boy" leaving a comment that left me, well, thrilled. imagine a great writer saying those things to me. he's from PULP at that. i wonder if he told pedicab member jason caballa about it since they're officemates. but, oh well, i'm one pajama writer, as one other person who publishes his/her thoughts online says so, in a multitude.
Monday, October 31, 2005
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
random stuffs
i am drawn to bizaare stuff. so i appreciated the hbo series carnivale from the start, when all i had was the trailer/commercial. i also loved gaiman's sandman although i only got to read as far as the first volume Preludes and Nocturnes (anyone there willing to lend me the other ten volumes?) i also really wanted to watch a series of unfortunate events (whichi got to do already). i know i'm going to love the upcoming collaboration with gaiman and mckean - mirrormask. i love the different colors and vibes emitted by these strange things.
strange lands, magical places... i'm fond of thinking about these things. i guess you can say i'm out of touch with reality. when i think about it, i do think it's true. when i'm in up, i think i live a life far from what my family has here at home. practikal dito sa bahay. parating may ginagawa. i was thoroughly disappointed when i came home because i had chicken pox. since baha dito sa amin, i was expecting my dad to fetch me with the car. pero hindi. at may sakit na ako nung time na iyon. nawala lahat nung mga iniisip kong sasabihin ko o gagawin ko pagkauwi ko nang naupo na ako sa hapag-kainan at nag-usap kami ng mommy ko. i'm a shitty dreamer. kaya siguro wala akong mas magandang rason sa kagustuhan kong manatili dito sa 'pinas other than gusto ko kasi dito.
madalas, torn ako sa gusto kong gawin at sa dapat kong gawin. praktikal na dapat kasi ang mga tao ngayon, lalo na't hindi pa rin umuusad ang ating bansa. pero gusto kong gawin iyong mga gusto ko dahil nagpapasaya sila sa akin. ang hirap talaga pag wala kang pera. sana umulan ng pera dito sa amin. kahit 10 million, ayos na. mag-iinvest sa kung anong pagkakakitaan tapos mag-eenjoy. pwede siguro akong mag-shift pagdating nung araw na iyon.
recently edited ang aking profile. na-edit ko siya nang isang araw na alam kong may dapat akong gawin pero iba ang inatupag ko. iyon ata iyong araw na depressed ako (the subject of a previous entry - hindi ako makapaniwalang nangyari iyon kapag iniisip ko siya ngayon). ewan ko kung bakit nagkaroon ako ng coherent answer sa space sa profile sa friendster para sa about me. ang tagal ko nang di nakapag-isip ng tungkol sa sarili ko. tapos biglang nagsilabasan lahat ang alam kong tungkol sa
akin pero hindi ako aware na ganun pala.
kinakailangan ko ng extraordinary burst of energy to go out of my way and socialize. e madalas i'm in just one place with my mouth shut. kaya ayun, hindi gaanong umuusad sa social ladder. marami na kong taong napapalampas. frustrating talaga 'to. i think i'm gonna die with only a handful of people, my family included, grieving over me. most of them won't probably notice i'm gone. yehey!
"this is my blab medium."
so freaking true. dito lang talaga ako nakakapagdaldal. balak ko ngang gumawa ng memoirs ng aking buhay. matagal na kong nagsusulat ng kung anu-anong pangyayari, simula pa grade 4 nung una akong niregaluhan ng diary. hindi pa rin napupuno iyon pero ang dami ko nang nasulatang used notebooks. minsan tuluy-tuloy, tapos mawawala, tapos makakapagsulat muli. nakakainis nga at hindi naibalik nung prof ko sa cw10 iyong journals namin. cute pa naman nung notebook - bought it at papemelroti just for that purpose - at ang daming naka-record doong memories. well, at least a month of memories pero di ko na maibabalik iyong mga iyon muli.
wish ko lang binabasa ito ng maraming tao diba para makilala pa nila ako pero siyempre, only a handful do it. kaya kailangan pa rin magpakabibo sa labas ng bahay. yup, tama iyon. dito kasi sa bahay, i'm super comfortable. dito lang ata lumalabas sa bahay iyong tunay kong pagkatao. nagagalit, nadidisappoint at nasisiyahan ako dito. sa ibang lugar, i try to keep my cool, hindi naman sa short-tempered ako pero wala lang sa akin kung may atraso sa akin ang mga tao. sa boarding house, dreamer ako madalas. living in my own sugar-coated dreams, malayo sa totoong buhay. pero kung iisipin dreamer naman tayong lahat. pero that's the subject for another blog entry. hanggang dito na lang muna dahil kanina pa naka-on tong pc. at masakit na ang mata ko.
strange lands, magical places... i'm fond of thinking about these things. i guess you can say i'm out of touch with reality. when i think about it, i do think it's true. when i'm in up, i think i live a life far from what my family has here at home. practikal dito sa bahay. parating may ginagawa. i was thoroughly disappointed when i came home because i had chicken pox. since baha dito sa amin, i was expecting my dad to fetch me with the car. pero hindi. at may sakit na ako nung time na iyon. nawala lahat nung mga iniisip kong sasabihin ko o gagawin ko pagkauwi ko nang naupo na ako sa hapag-kainan at nag-usap kami ng mommy ko. i'm a shitty dreamer. kaya siguro wala akong mas magandang rason sa kagustuhan kong manatili dito sa 'pinas other than gusto ko kasi dito.
madalas, torn ako sa gusto kong gawin at sa dapat kong gawin. praktikal na dapat kasi ang mga tao ngayon, lalo na't hindi pa rin umuusad ang ating bansa. pero gusto kong gawin iyong mga gusto ko dahil nagpapasaya sila sa akin. ang hirap talaga pag wala kang pera. sana umulan ng pera dito sa amin. kahit 10 million, ayos na. mag-iinvest sa kung anong pagkakakitaan tapos mag-eenjoy. pwede siguro akong mag-shift pagdating nung araw na iyon.
recently edited ang aking profile. na-edit ko siya nang isang araw na alam kong may dapat akong gawin pero iba ang inatupag ko. iyon ata iyong araw na depressed ako (the subject of a previous entry - hindi ako makapaniwalang nangyari iyon kapag iniisip ko siya ngayon). ewan ko kung bakit nagkaroon ako ng coherent answer sa space sa profile sa friendster para sa about me. ang tagal ko nang di nakapag-isip ng tungkol sa sarili ko. tapos biglang nagsilabasan lahat ang alam kong tungkol sa
akin pero hindi ako aware na ganun pala.
"i am usually quiet, sometimes too quiet. socializing,i find, is something that i would need to put a lot of effort into. i prefer to stay with the
crowd i know, seldom venturing to talk to other people. and even though i'm with my
crowd, I don’t talk that much."
kinakailangan ko ng extraordinary burst of energy to go out of my way and socialize. e madalas i'm in just one place with my mouth shut. kaya ayun, hindi gaanong umuusad sa social ladder. marami na kong taong napapalampas. frustrating talaga 'to. i think i'm gonna die with only a handful of people, my family included, grieving over me. most of them won't probably notice i'm gone. yehey!
"this is my blab medium."
so freaking true. dito lang talaga ako nakakapagdaldal. balak ko ngang gumawa ng memoirs ng aking buhay. matagal na kong nagsusulat ng kung anu-anong pangyayari, simula pa grade 4 nung una akong niregaluhan ng diary. hindi pa rin napupuno iyon pero ang dami ko nang nasulatang used notebooks. minsan tuluy-tuloy, tapos mawawala, tapos makakapagsulat muli. nakakainis nga at hindi naibalik nung prof ko sa cw10 iyong journals namin. cute pa naman nung notebook - bought it at papemelroti just for that purpose - at ang daming naka-record doong memories. well, at least a month of memories pero di ko na maibabalik iyong mga iyon muli.
wish ko lang binabasa ito ng maraming tao diba para makilala pa nila ako pero siyempre, only a handful do it. kaya kailangan pa rin magpakabibo sa labas ng bahay. yup, tama iyon. dito kasi sa bahay, i'm super comfortable. dito lang ata lumalabas sa bahay iyong tunay kong pagkatao. nagagalit, nadidisappoint at nasisiyahan ako dito. sa ibang lugar, i try to keep my cool, hindi naman sa short-tempered ako pero wala lang sa akin kung may atraso sa akin ang mga tao. sa boarding house, dreamer ako madalas. living in my own sugar-coated dreams, malayo sa totoong buhay. pero kung iisipin dreamer naman tayong lahat. pero that's the subject for another blog entry. hanggang dito na lang muna dahil kanina pa naka-on tong pc. at masakit na ang mata ko.
on blogs
masayang magbasa ng blog ng kung sinu-sino. seeemingly mundane happenings turn out to be good laughs depende sa pagkakasulat ng tao.
i also saved all my blog entries dito sa pc sa bahay. sandamukal na word document na may archive sa filename ang nasa folder ko ngayon, not that ang dami nila. pero one yr and five months na kong nagblo-blog so ilang buwan na rin iyon. dun ko nalaman na gray pala ang kulay ng text ng aking blog. i thought it was white all along. unobservant me. pero ok iyong effect. galing ni cara Ü oh yeah, cara's the one who did the colors, fonts and the new header for my blog. i was originally expecting a different look (i'm not a big fan of brown) but this one's grown on me.
anyway, i couldn't proceed with just copying all my entries and then saving them afterwards without snatching a glance or two at my entries. siyempre ang dami nang nangyari at marami na rin akong nakalimutan doon. astig iyong nababalikan ko iyong mga araw at nangingibabaw uli iyong dominant emotions nung time na sinulat ko iyong mga entries na iyon. at kahit maraming events na hindi nai-record, marami nang nakasamang emosyon at pangyayari sa mga pangyayaring naisulat ko. nostalgia trip talaga... kahit less than a year ago lang Ü
i also saved all my blog entries dito sa pc sa bahay. sandamukal na word document na may archive sa filename ang nasa folder ko ngayon, not that ang dami nila. pero one yr and five months na kong nagblo-blog so ilang buwan na rin iyon. dun ko nalaman na gray pala ang kulay ng text ng aking blog. i thought it was white all along. unobservant me. pero ok iyong effect. galing ni cara Ü oh yeah, cara's the one who did the colors, fonts and the new header for my blog. i was originally expecting a different look (i'm not a big fan of brown) but this one's grown on me.
anyway, i couldn't proceed with just copying all my entries and then saving them afterwards without snatching a glance or two at my entries. siyempre ang dami nang nangyari at marami na rin akong nakalimutan doon. astig iyong nababalikan ko iyong mga araw at nangingibabaw uli iyong dominant emotions nung time na sinulat ko iyong mga entries na iyon. at kahit maraming events na hindi nai-record, marami nang nakasamang emosyon at pangyayari sa mga pangyayaring naisulat ko. nostalgia trip talaga... kahit less than a year ago lang Ü
Friday, October 7, 2005
panaginip
halos gabi-gabi ay napupunta ako kung saan-saan, nanatili doon hanggang sa magkamalay at madilat na ang aking mga mata. 6 am pa lang kasi gising na ako. iba talaga ang dulot ng nandito sa up. ilan sa mga napapanaginipan ko nowadays:
1. sumabak kami ni alessa sa isang boxing tournament. kami lang ang babae kaya kami ang naglaban. sunod na eksena, down na si alessa. ginising ko pa iyong referee na nakalatag sa daan (sa street kasi naganap iyon)tapos nagbilang siya at itinanghal akong nagwagi. tapos may pagsabog na naganap at napuksa lahat ang mga masasamang elemento. halos lahat pala ng mga andoon ay waring mga alien.
2. kanina naman, kasama doon ang kaibigan kong si ice at ilang miyembro ng up cinema. at nandoo rin iyong crush ko. at pinansin niya ko. ang saya ko tuloy nung nagising ako. pero dahil doon, hindi tuloy ako nakapag-aral kaninang umaga. siya lang kasi ang sumasagi sa isip ko. kainis talaga. nasayang tuloy oras ko.
1. sumabak kami ni alessa sa isang boxing tournament. kami lang ang babae kaya kami ang naglaban. sunod na eksena, down na si alessa. ginising ko pa iyong referee na nakalatag sa daan (sa street kasi naganap iyon)tapos nagbilang siya at itinanghal akong nagwagi. tapos may pagsabog na naganap at napuksa lahat ang mga masasamang elemento. halos lahat pala ng mga andoon ay waring mga alien.
2. kanina naman, kasama doon ang kaibigan kong si ice at ilang miyembro ng up cinema. at nandoo rin iyong crush ko. at pinansin niya ko. ang saya ko tuloy nung nagising ako. pero dahil doon, hindi tuloy ako nakapag-aral kaninang umaga. siya lang kasi ang sumasagi sa isip ko. kainis talaga. nasayang tuloy oras ko.
Monday, October 3, 2005
jai guru deva ohm
hay, hindi pa rin ako recovered. hindi pa rin ako maka-focus sa dapat kong gagawin kaya ako andito ngayon sa dlrc, which is gumawa ng paper.
dahil doon, naisipan kong magpalit ng blog title. from hitchin' a ride, ginawa kong jai guru deva, from the beatles' song across the universe. buti na lang at natanong ko kung anong ibig sabihin nito. kaya off to search sa trusty wikipedia.org at eto ang nakita ko:
Jai Guru Deva Om is a mantra mostly known for being recited in the song Across the Universe by the Beatles, released in 1970 and covered by many artists since.
yup, alam na natin ito. mantra pala so parang galing sa buddhist or hindu beliefs. the beatles did spend some time in india, i believe.
Jai means "I give hope", or "thanks to" and can also mean "victory" or "salutations". "Guru" means teacher, and "Dev" means "god" or "heavenly one". The "a" on the end of the word "Dev" in the song appears to have been added by John Lennon, so "Guru Deva" is actually "Guru Dev". "Guru Dev" was mentioned in the song as he was supposed to have been the teacher of Maharishi. "Om" or "Ohm" is the sound of the balance of the universe. Its purpose in the song is to establish contact with the universe.
hmmm... ayos lang naman. so "giving thanks to the teacher". sige idadagdag ko na rin iyong "ohm." yeba!
yehey, buti naisipan kong mag-post nito. hindi na ko ganoon kalungkot. hehe :)
dahil doon, naisipan kong magpalit ng blog title. from hitchin' a ride, ginawa kong jai guru deva, from the beatles' song across the universe. buti na lang at natanong ko kung anong ibig sabihin nito. kaya off to search sa trusty wikipedia.org at eto ang nakita ko:
Jai Guru Deva Om is a mantra mostly known for being recited in the song Across the Universe by the Beatles, released in 1970 and covered by many artists since.
yup, alam na natin ito. mantra pala so parang galing sa buddhist or hindu beliefs. the beatles did spend some time in india, i believe.
Jai means "I give hope", or "thanks to" and can also mean "victory" or "salutations". "Guru" means teacher, and "Dev" means "god" or "heavenly one". The "a" on the end of the word "Dev" in the song appears to have been added by John Lennon, so "Guru Deva" is actually "Guru Dev". "Guru Dev" was mentioned in the song as he was supposed to have been the teacher of Maharishi. "Om" or "Ohm" is the sound of the balance of the universe. Its purpose in the song is to establish contact with the universe.
hmmm... ayos lang naman. so "giving thanks to the teacher". sige idadagdag ko na rin iyong "ohm." yeba!
yehey, buti naisipan kong mag-post nito. hindi na ko ganoon kalungkot. hehe :)
depressed... obsessed...
the day started out really gloomy. umuulan kaninang umaga. much as i would have loved to stay in bed a bit longer, there's a make-up class for me to attend at 8:30 am. those 3-day training sessions given to those who need to learn them where scrimped to two hours for us. lima lang pala kami. iba din iyong lecture room. mas spacious which wasn't the case for our assigned classroom so mas madaling lumipad ang isip. madami ka kasing pwedeng pagtingin. todo rin sa taking-notes skill namin 'to. medyo marami kasi kaya kailangan mabilis magsulat. pero ok lang. mas napagod pa rin ako nung nag-take notes kami sa food additives and processing aids.
kanina pa ako medyo feeling down. bakit? hindi ko pa kasi nakikita iyong isang taong nakita ko kahapon. shet! grabe ng imagination ko kagabi nung nakauwi na ako. ayaw ko na sanang umasa o mag-isip nang kung ano dahil hindi naman mangyayari...
masyado naman akong nangarap kahapon. ayan tuloy, ubod ang pagkalungkot ko ngayon. e sino ba siya? hindi ko nga siya kilala. dumadausdos lang sa paningin ko kung may pagkakataon. ano bang appeal niya? for sure kung tatanungin ko iyong mga kakilala ko, wala siya sa current apples of their eyes.
wenk?!? sino ba talaga siya at bakit ako fixated sa kanya? ano ba kasi itong mga tipo ko? hindi naman siguro siya habuling tao. maliit nga siya e. pero kung ano man siya, kras ko siya. ayan. nangangarap na lang ako na hindi pa siya gra-gradweyt ngayong taon para makita ko pa siya. kahapon lang naging seryoso itong pagtingin ko sa kanya dahil sa mga pangyayari na kung iisipin naman ay hindi ganoon ka-indicative ng kahit ano. well, tingin ko ganoon. ako rin lang kasi ang lumilikha ng mga pagkakalituhan ko sa buhay.
tangina, ang spontaneous ng pagta-type ko ngayon sa dlrc. ganun talaga kalala ang nararamdaman ko. normally kung wala lang, kung may ibang bagay pa kong iniisip hindi ko maisusulat ang isang entry na ganito kahaba. dapat nga gagawa ako ng paper for extra points sa panpil17. putek, mawala ka na sana sa isip ko. nade-depress tuloy ako. at mukhang ayaw ko pa ring tumigil sa pagta-type dito.
isang pagkakataon lang para masilayan siya... iyong nga ba ang kailangan ko? nahihirapan akong mag-concentrate sa iniisip kong paksa para sa gagawin kong sanaysay. kanina pa to. sana matigil na. ayaw ko nang ganito ang nararamdaman ko hanggang mamayang gabi. nais ko pa namang dumaan sa tambayan at makichika o makisalamuha sa orgmates na matagal ko nang hindi nakakasama.
matapos na sana tong obsession na 'to para wala na kong pinapangarap. hilig kasing managinip ng gising e.
kanina pa ako medyo feeling down. bakit? hindi ko pa kasi nakikita iyong isang taong nakita ko kahapon. shet! grabe ng imagination ko kagabi nung nakauwi na ako. ayaw ko na sanang umasa o mag-isip nang kung ano dahil hindi naman mangyayari...
masyado naman akong nangarap kahapon. ayan tuloy, ubod ang pagkalungkot ko ngayon. e sino ba siya? hindi ko nga siya kilala. dumadausdos lang sa paningin ko kung may pagkakataon. ano bang appeal niya? for sure kung tatanungin ko iyong mga kakilala ko, wala siya sa current apples of their eyes.
wenk?!? sino ba talaga siya at bakit ako fixated sa kanya? ano ba kasi itong mga tipo ko? hindi naman siguro siya habuling tao. maliit nga siya e. pero kung ano man siya, kras ko siya. ayan. nangangarap na lang ako na hindi pa siya gra-gradweyt ngayong taon para makita ko pa siya. kahapon lang naging seryoso itong pagtingin ko sa kanya dahil sa mga pangyayari na kung iisipin naman ay hindi ganoon ka-indicative ng kahit ano. well, tingin ko ganoon. ako rin lang kasi ang lumilikha ng mga pagkakalituhan ko sa buhay.
tangina, ang spontaneous ng pagta-type ko ngayon sa dlrc. ganun talaga kalala ang nararamdaman ko. normally kung wala lang, kung may ibang bagay pa kong iniisip hindi ko maisusulat ang isang entry na ganito kahaba. dapat nga gagawa ako ng paper for extra points sa panpil17. putek, mawala ka na sana sa isip ko. nade-depress tuloy ako. at mukhang ayaw ko pa ring tumigil sa pagta-type dito.
isang pagkakataon lang para masilayan siya... iyong nga ba ang kailangan ko? nahihirapan akong mag-concentrate sa iniisip kong paksa para sa gagawin kong sanaysay. kanina pa to. sana matigil na. ayaw ko nang ganito ang nararamdaman ko hanggang mamayang gabi. nais ko pa namang dumaan sa tambayan at makichika o makisalamuha sa orgmates na matagal ko nang hindi nakakasama.
matapos na sana tong obsession na 'to para wala na kong pinapangarap. hilig kasing managinip ng gising e.
Saturday, October 1, 2005
some more online quizzes, aka blogthings
chenen! second batch. ang dami pa pala.
Take the quiz: "What Star Wars Character Are You?"
Luke Skywalker
Your upbringing was very sheltered and you long for freedom.
Take the quiz: "What Specific Sport Are You?"
Surfing
YOU ARE SURFING! You like getting stoned and love it when you catch the perfect wave! Rock on dude!
Your Dominant Thinking Style: |
| Experimenting You're all about looking at the facts, and you could always use more of them. You see life as your lab - and you're always trying out new things, people, and ideas. The master of mix and match, you're always coming up with unique combinations. You are good at getting a group to reach consensus. |
Your Secondary Thinking Style: |
| Exploring You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name. You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs. An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles. You show people how to question their models of the world. |
Take the quiz: "What Star Wars Character Are You?"
Luke Skywalker
Your upbringing was very sheltered and you long for freedom.
You Belong in New York CityYou're an energetic, ambitious woman. And only NYC is fast enough for you. Maybe you'll set yourself up with a killer career Or simply take in all the city has to offer What City Do You Belong in? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. |  |
| Your Element is Metal |
 Your power colors: white, gold, and silver Your energy: contracting Your season: fall You are persistent (and maybe even a little bit stubborn). If you see something you want, you go for it. You have a lot of strength, and it's difficult to get you down. Very logical, you tend to analyze everything going on in your life. |
| Your Fashion Style is Sporty |
 You're a natural beauty who doesn't need fancy clothes to look good You prefer your clothes to be comfortable, so you can stay on the go For you, femininity is not how you wear - but how you wear it. Still, don't be afraid to show off that great body in a dress or skirt! |
| Your Celebrity Style Twin is Gwen Stefani |
 Trendsetting, unique, and stylish. |
| Your Love Quote |
Love makes the wildest spirit tame, and the tamest spirit wild. |
| This Fall, You Should Wear |
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Take the quiz: "What Specific Sport Are You?"
Surfing
YOU ARE SURFING! You like getting stoned and love it when you catch the perfect wave! Rock on dude!
Your Inner Retro Girl Is |
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break! blogthings mania...
ha! tapos na ang linggong ito.
finals week na!
ilang araw na rin akong walang kasaya-saya sa buhay. except kahapon and the day before yesterday. ilang oras din lang iyon. exams, papers, group meetings...
ka-haggard...
kaya eto... pagkatapos ng fourth long exam sa biochem na sobrang disappointing (kelan pa ba naging hindi?), punta sana akong sunken para makasama ang mga sikad peeps. hindi ko naman sila makita. kaya nagpunta ako ng sc. dapat magre-research ako tungkol sa electronic and ethnic music. wala ring kinauwian. inuna kasi ang pagchecheck ng email at paghahanap ng mga taong ngayon ko lang naisip i-add sa friends list sa friendster account. tapos nauwi din ako sa blog-hopping ng mga taong kilala ko. kaya chenen! new blogthings. hehe Ü
-- pa-iba-iba naman 'to. nung una kong nilagay iyong pangalan ko, Sakiko Tanaka. same name rin naman iyong pinasok ko dito. oh well...
-- factory jobs? comedy? "just teasing" naman ang aking nailagay sa sense of humor. dentistry? nung pinalitan ko naman iyong about humor and put it in as "dry", eto naman... sa ideal jobs mas malapit ito. pero sa personality mas malapit iyong sa taas.
-- true enough. agonistic?
-- me being japanese again... i do love japanese culture.
-- akei!
-- true enough, yes.
-- er...
-- hmmm...
-- ar.
-- i do?
-- purple, huh?
-- weird!
-- yey?!?
-- kewl!
-- me no machiavellian...
-- o'donovan sounds... irish.
-- me? oh?
-- there's a whole lot of truth in this. how did they know?
-- the last part is really true.
-- this is the last one. yey!
finals week na!
ilang araw na rin akong walang kasaya-saya sa buhay. except kahapon and the day before yesterday. ilang oras din lang iyon. exams, papers, group meetings...
ka-haggard...
kaya eto... pagkatapos ng fourth long exam sa biochem na sobrang disappointing (kelan pa ba naging hindi?), punta sana akong sunken para makasama ang mga sikad peeps. hindi ko naman sila makita. kaya nagpunta ako ng sc. dapat magre-research ako tungkol sa electronic and ethnic music. wala ring kinauwian. inuna kasi ang pagchecheck ng email at paghahanap ng mga taong ngayon ko lang naisip i-add sa friends list sa friendster account. tapos nauwi din ako sa blog-hopping ng mga taong kilala ko. kaya chenen! new blogthings. hehe Ü
| Your Japanese Name Is... |
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-- pa-iba-iba naman 'to. nung una kong nilagay iyong pangalan ko, Sakiko Tanaka. same name rin naman iyong pinasok ko dito. oh well...
| You Are Likely A Forth Born |
 At your darkest moments, you feel angry. At work and school, you do best when your analyzing. When you love someone, you tend to be very giving. In friendship, you don't take the initiative in reaching out. Your ideal jobs are: factory jobs, comedy, and dentistry. You will leave your mark on the world with your own personal philosophy. |
-- factory jobs? comedy? "just teasing" naman ang aking nailagay sa sense of humor. dentistry? nung pinalitan ko naman iyong about humor and put it in as "dry", eto naman... sa ideal jobs mas malapit ito. pero sa personality mas malapit iyong sa taas.
| You Are Likely a Second Born |
 At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate. At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating. When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism. In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative. Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels. You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects. |
| You are Agonistic |
 You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care. For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine. You rather focus on what you can control - your own life. And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you. |
-- true enough. agonistic?
| You Should Learn Japanese |
 You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture. From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko! |
-- me being japanese again... i do love japanese culture.
| Your Brain's Pattern |
 Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama. Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time... But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you. You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading. |
-- akei!
| Your Personality Profile |
 You are dreamy, peaceful, and young at heart. Optimistic and caring, you tend to see the best in people. You tend to be always smiling - and making others smile. You are shy and intelligent... and a very hard worker. You're also funny, but many people don't see your funny side. Your subtle dry humor leaves your close friends in stitches. |
-- true enough, yes.
Slow and Steady |
 Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
-- er...
| Your Power Color Is Red-Orange |
 At Your Highest: You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth. At Your Lowest: You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked. In Love: You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve. How You're Attractive: You are very affectionate and inspire trust. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Respected?" |
-- hmmm...
Your Birthdate: March 3 |
 Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs. |
-- ar.
| Your Hidden Talent |
 You have the power to persuade and influence others. You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around. The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it. Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think! |
-- i do?
| Your Blog Should Be Purple |
 You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say. |
-- purple, huh?
| You Are 40% Weird |
 Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
-- weird!
| You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
-- yey?!?
Your Sexy Brazilian Name is: |
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-- kewl!
| You Are The Opposite of Machiavellian |
 You don't have a cynical, power hungry bone in your body. Honest and kind, you believe being a good person is the most important thing. While your upstanding morals should be admired, be careful! You're at risk for being manipulated and toyed with. |
-- me no machiavellian...
Your Irish Name Is... |
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-- o'donovan sounds... irish.
| You Are a Glam Rocker! |
 You put the "show" in rock show with your larger than life self. No doubt, you are all about making good music... But what really gets you going is having an over the top show. Glitter, costumes, and wild hair are your thing - with some rock thrown in! |
-- me? oh?
| How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
-- there's a whole lot of truth in this. how did they know?
| Your Career Type: Artistic |
 You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary. |
-- the last part is really true.
| Your World View |
You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content. You value kindness and try to live by your ideals. You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material. You respect truth and are flexible. You like people, and they can readily make friends with you. You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you. |
-- this is the last one. yey!
Thursday, September 29, 2005
last night, i wanted someone to accost me and do something brazen to me. that thought started without any particular person in mind but eventually ended up with the image of one person. the stuff daydreams are of. wishful thinking at its purest.
--
days ago, i watched the foo fighters' video of walking after you. although in mini-screen mode only, i promptly fell in love with dave grohl. yes, joseph, he is hot. thanks for opening my eyes to that fact.
--
right now, i wish i had been a diligent student like kirth. that i study everyday when i get home and retain the pieces of knowledge i hear in class.
exams are raining down on my lap. the earliest one is the fourth long exam for biochem on saturday. although what is only covered is what was tackled after i recovered, there are still incorporations of previous lessons which my brain pointedly refused to retain at the time that i should have studied them.
yes, two weeks more. two most excruciating weeks. i hope i survive and emerge at least a bit triumphant.
--
days ago, i watched the foo fighters' video of walking after you. although in mini-screen mode only, i promptly fell in love with dave grohl. yes, joseph, he is hot. thanks for opening my eyes to that fact.
--
right now, i wish i had been a diligent student like kirth. that i study everyday when i get home and retain the pieces of knowledge i hear in class.
exams are raining down on my lap. the earliest one is the fourth long exam for biochem on saturday. although what is only covered is what was tackled after i recovered, there are still incorporations of previous lessons which my brain pointedly refused to retain at the time that i should have studied them.
yes, two weeks more. two most excruciating weeks. i hope i survive and emerge at least a bit triumphant.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
i'll post this before it gets lost.. lessons in UP
1. Ang buhay ay parang IKOT jeep. Ang iyong patutunguhan ay siya ring iyong pinanggalingan.
2. U.P. lang ang may TOKI, sa buhay wala nito. Pero nasasaiyo na yon kung nais mong pabaligtad
ang takbo ng buhay mo.
3. Sa IKOT, pwede kang magkamali ng baba kahit ilang beses, sasakay ka lang uli. Sa buhay, kapag
paikot-ikot ka na at laging mali pa rin ang iyong baba, naku, may sayad ka.
4. Sa U.P., lahat tayo magaling. Aminin nating lahat na tayo'y magagaling. Ang problema dun,
lahat tayo magaling!
5. Kung sa U.P. ay sipsip ka na, siguradong paglabas mo, sipsip ka pa rin.
6. Sa U.P., tulad sa buhay, ang babae at ang lalake, at lahat ng nasa gitna, ay patas, walang
pinagkaiba sa dunong, sa talino, sa pagmamalasakit, sa kalawakan.
7. Sa U.P. tulad sa buhay, bawal ang overstaying.
*by Prof. Ryan Cayabyab
from Commencement speech given on April 24,
2005 before the Class of 2005, UP Diliman,
Quezon City
2. U.P. lang ang may TOKI, sa buhay wala nito. Pero nasasaiyo na yon kung nais mong pabaligtad
ang takbo ng buhay mo.
3. Sa IKOT, pwede kang magkamali ng baba kahit ilang beses, sasakay ka lang uli. Sa buhay, kapag
paikot-ikot ka na at laging mali pa rin ang iyong baba, naku, may sayad ka.
4. Sa U.P., lahat tayo magaling. Aminin nating lahat na tayo'y magagaling. Ang problema dun,
lahat tayo magaling!
5. Kung sa U.P. ay sipsip ka na, siguradong paglabas mo, sipsip ka pa rin.
6. Sa U.P., tulad sa buhay, ang babae at ang lalake, at lahat ng nasa gitna, ay patas, walang
pinagkaiba sa dunong, sa talino, sa pagmamalasakit, sa kalawakan.
7. Sa U.P. tulad sa buhay, bawal ang overstaying.
*by Prof. Ryan Cayabyab
from Commencement speech given on April 24,
2005 before the Class of 2005, UP Diliman,
Quezon City
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
surprise, surprise
words have eluded me for the past 5 minutes. it's now 9:44 pm. just when i was poised to relate the latest events concerning me, my mind drifts elsewhere, unable to concentrate on the sheet of paper in front of me.
[another 3 minutes have passed]
sometimes our own actions take us by surprise.
last night, i flipped to a channel showing an ongoing socceer match. i don't know who the teams were - couldn't understand a thing the commentators were saying or a jig written on the screen. but anyhoo, ronaldinho's team was there. now, if you've been observing those players awhile, you'll find they have one of the best bods around. i saw ronaldinho before remove his jersey after a game, and well, to put it simply, he took my breath away hehe :D he's also a good player, making an impressive goal on a penalty kick on that game. i've read his name way back 1998, the first time i heard of the world cup where france took an astounding win over brazil with 3-0, brazil who had the likes of ronaldo and pele among its ranks and who was seen to conquer the world cup one more time. imagine how old he is now.
if you must know, i am attracted by long-haired guys. a weakness probably, now that i think about it. and ronaldinho was that, plus one great bod of a great athlete. so i perked up when i saw him on the screen last night. my heart went a-fluttering for a moment. (goodness, i now rely on faraway guys lording it in the screens to wake up these feelings in me. what news, i have an infatuation!) karen and rj were there with me, trying to watch and asking questions. i told them what i could, not being very familiar with the game rules, and i also proceeded to tell them about the '98 world cup and ronaldinho. and as i did talk about the latter, i became teary-eyed. it's not a gradual one but a sudden one - in a moment, my eyes were flooded with lachrymal excreta. they weren't tears of sadness nor joyousness. i said at that time that i was too excited so that tears welled up in my eyes. but it doesn't seem to make sense to me now. excited? ture, i was perked up by his image gracing the screen. but the feeling doesn't relate to the fact that tears sprang from my eyes.
later on that same night, i was relating to my sister my initial feelings when i started reading her book (the shadow of the wind) and once more i was teary-eyed. i wasn't perked up like the previous incident. i just wanted to tell her to let her know how much a jewel of a find the book is.
but well, there you go. surprise, surprise.
[another 3 minutes have passed]
sometimes our own actions take us by surprise.
last night, i flipped to a channel showing an ongoing socceer match. i don't know who the teams were - couldn't understand a thing the commentators were saying or a jig written on the screen. but anyhoo, ronaldinho's team was there. now, if you've been observing those players awhile, you'll find they have one of the best bods around. i saw ronaldinho before remove his jersey after a game, and well, to put it simply, he took my breath away hehe :D he's also a good player, making an impressive goal on a penalty kick on that game. i've read his name way back 1998, the first time i heard of the world cup where france took an astounding win over brazil with 3-0, brazil who had the likes of ronaldo and pele among its ranks and who was seen to conquer the world cup one more time. imagine how old he is now.
if you must know, i am attracted by long-haired guys. a weakness probably, now that i think about it. and ronaldinho was that, plus one great bod of a great athlete. so i perked up when i saw him on the screen last night. my heart went a-fluttering for a moment. (goodness, i now rely on faraway guys lording it in the screens to wake up these feelings in me. what news, i have an infatuation!) karen and rj were there with me, trying to watch and asking questions. i told them what i could, not being very familiar with the game rules, and i also proceeded to tell them about the '98 world cup and ronaldinho. and as i did talk about the latter, i became teary-eyed. it's not a gradual one but a sudden one - in a moment, my eyes were flooded with lachrymal excreta. they weren't tears of sadness nor joyousness. i said at that time that i was too excited so that tears welled up in my eyes. but it doesn't seem to make sense to me now. excited? ture, i was perked up by his image gracing the screen. but the feeling doesn't relate to the fact that tears sprang from my eyes.
later on that same night, i was relating to my sister my initial feelings when i started reading her book (the shadow of the wind) and once more i was teary-eyed. i wasn't perked up like the previous incident. i just wanted to tell her to let her know how much a jewel of a find the book is.
but well, there you go. surprise, surprise.
Monday, September 19, 2005
moi and those glorious pieces of...
the shadow of the wind
karen bought a second-hand book entitled shadow of the wind by carlos ruiz zafon for P175.00. it's already a translation. to my book-lover's eye, it was an extremely good find considering the price. the book is still mighty intact and there seems to be a very nice story waiting to be unraveled in its pages. she bought it last sunday, after her interview for the singapore asean scholarships, the undertaking of which only took 10 minutes. imagine waking up at 2 in the morning and traveling for 5 hours just to sit a spell with three singaporeans?
anyhow, just awhile ago, i started to read it, beginning with the praises splayed on the first two pages. and when i started with the story, it held me in its grip. it had that magic that makes it hard to put down. i thought i'd only read the first chapter but then i went on to the second, and many more paragraphs after the first sequence or part of the story was over. it held my attention, just like how the book in the story was doing to the soul of the main character. i know the book will be a very good one. i am looking forward to when i can finally read it without distractions. as of now, i cannot do that because i have plenty of things to attend to in my acad life. and even if i would, i can't bring it with me when i go back to up tomorrow because that's karen's book and she hasn't read it yet. but the magic of its pages hasn't left me yet. it feels like it's the same book the boy was reading, since they are of the same title though in the story, it is written by a certain Julian Carax. and even if i can't read a synopsis of the book, i feel like i would buy it from the cover itself. it's really something. it still leaves me awestruck, like it's a book that could change my life in a lot of ways. the soul of the main character is in ways akin to mine. we are serious book lovers. we would read anything, new or old. i wish i had my own cemetery of forgotten books.
books over anything
books are one of my greatest passions in life. along with it are music and movies. if i had to choose one among the three to be my only companion in life, i would choose books. there's the pleasure in taking journeys with another character and delving into a different state of mind. the power of the written word is truly far-reaching. it can take you any place and make you feel anything. the different sceneries provide for various enjoyment in a day of reading a book. this isn't much to convince anyone who doesn't feel the same as i do but as of now, words fail me to clearly express my most sublime feeling towards these great artifacts of culture.
language in books
books do use different language styles, from old english to hillbilly to british english to ghettospeak. there's been plenty of times when after reading a book i would write something, i try to write in the way that conversations in that book was written. yes, there's been plenty of times. although i'm not very successful at it and it wasn't really a conscious choice, they just come out like it's the natural way to say them. but they're very few and far between, at times occuring just in the first line. :D
like the expression "mighty intact" above. it's not really being used in the book i last read but it seems much the way the characters said things. making adverbs out of adjectives which should remain as such. the other one, "sit a spell" was used in that book. it's the new york times bestseller the songcatcher by sharyn mccrumb, another of karen's finds for P40.00. i realize now that most of the books i've read for the past week have been karen's - well, at least two that i've finished: the songcatcher and jane eyre. and i really want to start on the shadow of the wind. although i also got to finish one of stephen king's short stories in the skeleton crew, a second-hand find of mine back in cebu.
the language in itself is one main characteristic of the book. it sets the mood of the story. it tells you what may happen in the story and what may not. translating books must be really hard work. the writer has woven the spell in the original language and you have to recreate that same effect to those who'll be reading it in another language. it's not just the direct translation of the words. you can say a single sentence in a number of different ways but it takes a good sense of harmony with the words and an understanding of the book's cultural context to be able to transcribe the original effect to something very similar, albeit in another language.
that's why marquez's a hundred years of solitude, coelho's the alchemist, eleven minutes and others have considerably touched readers' souls. their translators must've incorporated the original writer's souls when they did them. hail to them for letting non-readers of the language enjoy these glorious works.
literature.
karen bought a second-hand book entitled shadow of the wind by carlos ruiz zafon for P175.00. it's already a translation. to my book-lover's eye, it was an extremely good find considering the price. the book is still mighty intact and there seems to be a very nice story waiting to be unraveled in its pages. she bought it last sunday, after her interview for the singapore asean scholarships, the undertaking of which only took 10 minutes. imagine waking up at 2 in the morning and traveling for 5 hours just to sit a spell with three singaporeans?
anyhow, just awhile ago, i started to read it, beginning with the praises splayed on the first two pages. and when i started with the story, it held me in its grip. it had that magic that makes it hard to put down. i thought i'd only read the first chapter but then i went on to the second, and many more paragraphs after the first sequence or part of the story was over. it held my attention, just like how the book in the story was doing to the soul of the main character. i know the book will be a very good one. i am looking forward to when i can finally read it without distractions. as of now, i cannot do that because i have plenty of things to attend to in my acad life. and even if i would, i can't bring it with me when i go back to up tomorrow because that's karen's book and she hasn't read it yet. but the magic of its pages hasn't left me yet. it feels like it's the same book the boy was reading, since they are of the same title though in the story, it is written by a certain Julian Carax. and even if i can't read a synopsis of the book, i feel like i would buy it from the cover itself. it's really something. it still leaves me awestruck, like it's a book that could change my life in a lot of ways. the soul of the main character is in ways akin to mine. we are serious book lovers. we would read anything, new or old. i wish i had my own cemetery of forgotten books.
books over anything
books are one of my greatest passions in life. along with it are music and movies. if i had to choose one among the three to be my only companion in life, i would choose books. there's the pleasure in taking journeys with another character and delving into a different state of mind. the power of the written word is truly far-reaching. it can take you any place and make you feel anything. the different sceneries provide for various enjoyment in a day of reading a book. this isn't much to convince anyone who doesn't feel the same as i do but as of now, words fail me to clearly express my most sublime feeling towards these great artifacts of culture.
language in books
books do use different language styles, from old english to hillbilly to british english to ghettospeak. there's been plenty of times when after reading a book i would write something, i try to write in the way that conversations in that book was written. yes, there's been plenty of times. although i'm not very successful at it and it wasn't really a conscious choice, they just come out like it's the natural way to say them. but they're very few and far between, at times occuring just in the first line. :D
like the expression "mighty intact" above. it's not really being used in the book i last read but it seems much the way the characters said things. making adverbs out of adjectives which should remain as such. the other one, "sit a spell" was used in that book. it's the new york times bestseller the songcatcher by sharyn mccrumb, another of karen's finds for P40.00. i realize now that most of the books i've read for the past week have been karen's - well, at least two that i've finished: the songcatcher and jane eyre. and i really want to start on the shadow of the wind. although i also got to finish one of stephen king's short stories in the skeleton crew, a second-hand find of mine back in cebu.
the language in itself is one main characteristic of the book. it sets the mood of the story. it tells you what may happen in the story and what may not. translating books must be really hard work. the writer has woven the spell in the original language and you have to recreate that same effect to those who'll be reading it in another language. it's not just the direct translation of the words. you can say a single sentence in a number of different ways but it takes a good sense of harmony with the words and an understanding of the book's cultural context to be able to transcribe the original effect to something very similar, albeit in another language.
that's why marquez's a hundred years of solitude, coelho's the alchemist, eleven minutes and others have considerably touched readers' souls. their translators must've incorporated the original writer's souls when they did them. hail to them for letting non-readers of the language enjoy these glorious works.
literature.
visual feast
here's a quick rundown of what i've been visually feasting on:
- comics history
one late-night channel surfing, i came across the history channel's take on comics. it takes us through the early dc comics and how marvel came up with its own line to challenge dc and other developments in the comics industry. comic covers, stories, notable personalities like stan lee, neil gaiman, story tactics like resurrecting the dead (e.g. robin) were featured.
the feature says x-men became such a hit because the characters weren't perfect. the readers could relate to them, unlike superman who was all steel that nothing can get him down. spiderman also became popular because peter parker was an ordinary high school boy who was just trying to get through high school. the power that he acquires all the more endears him to the readers because of the internal conflict brewing inside him. responsibility is a really heavy thing on one's shoulders, and deciding between being happy and doing something for the greater good will tear you apart many times. batman and robin weren't really accepted by the public, especially the elders because of the more-than-comrade treatment they seem to bestow each other. it's for that reason that robin was finally killed, i think, when batman comics sales were low. wonderwoman was also resurrected although i don't think it was very successful, after making her more like an image of modern times. there were also other moneymaking ventures like the hulk, the fantastic four, the punisher and daredevil.
frank miller, the author of the recently adapted sin city, was also an important figure in comics. his storytelling style was different. i believe his themes were usually dark but with really something good to say. the mention of gaiman's sandman is very short. it wasn't seen as a revolutionary piece, just one more comic joining in the fray which started being called graphic novels.
comics were tied to the social consciousness of their time. various issues like war and drugs were tackled. there were debates in the board room whether stories containing such themes will be published and eventually, they did after much grilling. the way the subjects were tackled should show that it's not cool to be doing such things. since much of young america was reading comics those days, it was really a very valuable medium to reach out to them.
i also found out that during the earlier years, writers and artists didn't have ownership of the works they were producing. the companies owned them. it was only around spiderman and the whole dc following suit that the creators got the credit for their work, i think, after another company started doing it.
- peter pan
yes, it's still the tale of the boy who never grew old. there's a bit of humor injected into it, and a few deviations from the original story, which i don't remember well anymore. anyhow, the - forgive the term - innocence that was inherent in the original story and various other adaptations of it, as well as in other elements of our childhood that had been abused and bastarded these times (e.g. bulaklak - why would they even think of putting double meanings in such harmless childhood games? the suggestive dance steps are the beginning of this. now every girl will enter school knowing that being sexy is an important thing.), was lost. peter was at first smitten with the 13-year-old wendy, who then starts to fall in love with him. yes, it did provide some focal points for this adaptation. yes, it's a new take on barrie's original story that captured the world. but i don't really agree with kids getting the idea that falling in love at a young age is such an important thing in the world. they are still kids. they should just enjoy their childhood, like what peter wanted to do. how could they exploit those young minds? crushes are all right, but love is another thing. pardon this outburst. i just wish things kids see nowadays are the same as what i used to watch before, untainted and full of good things. don't argue with my use of the words here.
- carnivale
i've been drawn to this ever since i first saw the advertisement on tv. i religiously watched the first few episodes while i could. it's still season one i think and i was able to watch four episodes this weekend. a pity that i only found out about it just recently. but i think the previous episodes were the ones i've watched already so no harm done. it's when i get back to up that i'll miss it again. sex has come up lately in the stories. i initially thought it would be something different since the beginning was really different from anything i've seen. i don't know what's been happening - the ratings are probably down or the creative minds behind it are not creative anymore - but yes, sex has been one of the key things that's making the story get on. even ben hawkins has been involved in it, and that's probably why he set out to save that woman's life. all of a sudden, life in the carnivale is no longer as it usually was. actually, it ceased to be when ben hawkins came along. however, i'm still stalled as to his connection with the priest Brother Justin who's situated in another part of the world and living in a perfectly normal environment. he, however, is not normal as the last episode has shown.
- fabulous life on vh1
yes, who else's life would be more interesting than ours? none other than the stars. though i don't really understand why some people would care to know everything that has been happening to everyone in tinseltown - local or foreign - i am grateful for those fansites being put up by faithful fans. a latest obsession over something or someone would find me scouring the net for anything and everything about him/her/it. most notable are the pictures so i say just keep them coming. but mind you, my obsessions don't last for long. eventually, i'd be content with what i have. i don't fixate on that obsession for long stretches of time. they usually come to an end, as soon as i've finally collected everything about it - a task i still have to accomplish with my manga scans and translations of rurouni kenshin. so i come back to my initial wonder at why people want to be always updated on everything that celebrities are doing at the moment. there's even a ridiculous kapamilya sim being sold in the country just so the ordinary citizen can stay in touch and in the know on what abs-cbn's stars are doing. they're feeding useless knowledge and promoting inappropriate priorities. the ordinary person would rather see claudine barreto cry on tv than understand the current political situation.
anyway, i've strayed far from my topic. another late night channel surfing chanced upon vh1's feature on the fabulous life of j. lo. she's rich. i was amazed, aghast at the extravagance that she indulges in to live her life. at least pam anderson doesn't keep her money all to herself. she's even got 3 kids. j. lo., i mean jennifer, has all the rocks that she's got. no longer jenny or j. lo. - a change of name ought to change people's perceptions about her - but she's got being rich and a star out strong.
- korean movies
of course, who can discount the comic relief provided by these? not to mention the touching endings that usually come with the laugh. i've only laid my eyes on windstruck and my little bride during this sick leave. but i still can't forget the images from my sassy girl. my 14-year-old brother even watched it with me and my sister and he wants to watch it again. of course, their flawless skin and their different nature provide a refreshing new view on these love stories. oh yeah, have you watched my tutor friend? cholo from stairway to heaven is there. i only saw him crying his heart out on tv before and it's great to see him playing it tough here. i do love chinitos, yeah nika? he's also got this killer smile and this killer bod. i could go with him right now if he wanted me hehe :D
- chocolat
i had the impression that this was a very sensational movie when it was shown in theaters. i stumbled upon it being shown on studio 23 after another late-night meditation in front of the tv. i wonder what i'd do without the remote. the wonders of technology hehe :D doesn't really take much to keep me happy. Ü anyway, i knew johnny depp was starring here. and being the fan that i am, i watched it to indulge in his acting prowess and downright charm; the images of luscious chocolate i remembered from years past also drew me to this. however, a boring pace soon got me surfing again but i did get the gist of the story. i wasn't able to start it so i didn't know the history of the women there. but they were considered outcasts in that society where religion keeps a strong hold on the people. the chocolate they make somehow induces people to commit sins because of the sheer enjoyment they get. that's really sad. once more, women are placed in categories which shouldn't be there. these outcasts are expected to conform to what they were used to. stubbornness led to a boycott on immorality which was fixated on them. never mind their happiness, their sense of self. i'm not aware of the turning point but eventually, the town's main man understood these women's side and the whole town no longer sees them as a threat. johnny depp's character is subdued but comical in his own way. this is the first movie i've seen him kissing another woman. heartbreak anyone?
- the tailor of panama
brosnan plays the kontrabida here and he gets away with it. imagine stirring up trouble in panama over a fake story of the intended sale of the panama canal, a very important trade port. all that trouble and shame - the us army, after getting info from the british, once again suits up to become the hero of any conflict - for 15 million US dollars. just for money once more, folks.
- desperate housewives
the wives of wisteria lane are unique in their own ways. all have their own concerns - from the ridiculously outrageous to the genuine simple ones. i don't know what's all the fuss about these women, but theirs is an interesting story in their own right. sex and getting back is not everything in the world. i guess i'm still tied up by conventional beliefs. anyhoo, i think i'd be happier in what i believe to be right than what's happening over there in the studios.
- metropolis
i just watched this animation awhile ago. i read that there's also a vintage movie titled metropolis but i'm not sure if they're the same thing. after months of putting it off, i finally put it in the player and surprisigly, the story took me from the very start when other chances didn't before. i guess it was just waiting for the right moment. it's based on the comics of osamu tezuka so the story must've been really old. metropolis is like any ordinary city of the future. the people have a characteristic appearance here different from the usual drawings. they did look strange the first time i saw them. two looked quite normal, resembling astroboy's round face but not his hair - kenichi and rock, two of the main characters. one looked americanish in appearance (he's supposed to be a japanese) - this is kenichi's uncle - and one looks like the normal anime drawing, the robot fashioned from the rich man's late daughter. it's robot fiction. robots are now in use to do more work. the downside is many people, mostly from the impoverished sector are staying that way with no jobs and no means to succeed. so there's growing interest in the elimination of these robots. there's also the rich sector who try to stay in power, and who want to take control of the world. the latter is being accomplished with the help of a special robot. but the rich man's adopted son wouldn't hear of it and tries to thwart his plans even if his father would disown him. in the end, the structure built for that purpose, the ziggurat, is destroyed by that robot he tries to use after she realizes what she can do. but total world doom is prevented by a human, the first person the robot meets who knows her enough to stop her and try to reach to that being he once knew. an interesting facet of this animation is the musical score. it's different from the previous ones - or is it the trend in some animation nowadays? - because jazz music is featured here. i do not know the artists but they do keep you up on your toes. instead of the sound of a big explosion when the ziggurat was getting destroyed, what i heard was silence from the main explosion, the one that should've been the biggest, and then the entry of a jazz ballad with the lyrics sung by a man. the music was quite at home with the colors of the film. the bright colors seem to bring you back to the lively scene that i imagine new orleans once was, before that devastating hurricane.
- comics history
one late-night channel surfing, i came across the history channel's take on comics. it takes us through the early dc comics and how marvel came up with its own line to challenge dc and other developments in the comics industry. comic covers, stories, notable personalities like stan lee, neil gaiman, story tactics like resurrecting the dead (e.g. robin) were featured.
the feature says x-men became such a hit because the characters weren't perfect. the readers could relate to them, unlike superman who was all steel that nothing can get him down. spiderman also became popular because peter parker was an ordinary high school boy who was just trying to get through high school. the power that he acquires all the more endears him to the readers because of the internal conflict brewing inside him. responsibility is a really heavy thing on one's shoulders, and deciding between being happy and doing something for the greater good will tear you apart many times. batman and robin weren't really accepted by the public, especially the elders because of the more-than-comrade treatment they seem to bestow each other. it's for that reason that robin was finally killed, i think, when batman comics sales were low. wonderwoman was also resurrected although i don't think it was very successful, after making her more like an image of modern times. there were also other moneymaking ventures like the hulk, the fantastic four, the punisher and daredevil.
frank miller, the author of the recently adapted sin city, was also an important figure in comics. his storytelling style was different. i believe his themes were usually dark but with really something good to say. the mention of gaiman's sandman is very short. it wasn't seen as a revolutionary piece, just one more comic joining in the fray which started being called graphic novels.
comics were tied to the social consciousness of their time. various issues like war and drugs were tackled. there were debates in the board room whether stories containing such themes will be published and eventually, they did after much grilling. the way the subjects were tackled should show that it's not cool to be doing such things. since much of young america was reading comics those days, it was really a very valuable medium to reach out to them.
i also found out that during the earlier years, writers and artists didn't have ownership of the works they were producing. the companies owned them. it was only around spiderman and the whole dc following suit that the creators got the credit for their work, i think, after another company started doing it.
- peter pan
yes, it's still the tale of the boy who never grew old. there's a bit of humor injected into it, and a few deviations from the original story, which i don't remember well anymore. anyhow, the - forgive the term - innocence that was inherent in the original story and various other adaptations of it, as well as in other elements of our childhood that had been abused and bastarded these times (e.g. bulaklak - why would they even think of putting double meanings in such harmless childhood games? the suggestive dance steps are the beginning of this. now every girl will enter school knowing that being sexy is an important thing.), was lost. peter was at first smitten with the 13-year-old wendy, who then starts to fall in love with him. yes, it did provide some focal points for this adaptation. yes, it's a new take on barrie's original story that captured the world. but i don't really agree with kids getting the idea that falling in love at a young age is such an important thing in the world. they are still kids. they should just enjoy their childhood, like what peter wanted to do. how could they exploit those young minds? crushes are all right, but love is another thing. pardon this outburst. i just wish things kids see nowadays are the same as what i used to watch before, untainted and full of good things. don't argue with my use of the words here.
- carnivale
i've been drawn to this ever since i first saw the advertisement on tv. i religiously watched the first few episodes while i could. it's still season one i think and i was able to watch four episodes this weekend. a pity that i only found out about it just recently. but i think the previous episodes were the ones i've watched already so no harm done. it's when i get back to up that i'll miss it again. sex has come up lately in the stories. i initially thought it would be something different since the beginning was really different from anything i've seen. i don't know what's been happening - the ratings are probably down or the creative minds behind it are not creative anymore - but yes, sex has been one of the key things that's making the story get on. even ben hawkins has been involved in it, and that's probably why he set out to save that woman's life. all of a sudden, life in the carnivale is no longer as it usually was. actually, it ceased to be when ben hawkins came along. however, i'm still stalled as to his connection with the priest Brother Justin who's situated in another part of the world and living in a perfectly normal environment. he, however, is not normal as the last episode has shown.
- fabulous life on vh1
yes, who else's life would be more interesting than ours? none other than the stars. though i don't really understand why some people would care to know everything that has been happening to everyone in tinseltown - local or foreign - i am grateful for those fansites being put up by faithful fans. a latest obsession over something or someone would find me scouring the net for anything and everything about him/her/it. most notable are the pictures so i say just keep them coming. but mind you, my obsessions don't last for long. eventually, i'd be content with what i have. i don't fixate on that obsession for long stretches of time. they usually come to an end, as soon as i've finally collected everything about it - a task i still have to accomplish with my manga scans and translations of rurouni kenshin. so i come back to my initial wonder at why people want to be always updated on everything that celebrities are doing at the moment. there's even a ridiculous kapamilya sim being sold in the country just so the ordinary citizen can stay in touch and in the know on what abs-cbn's stars are doing. they're feeding useless knowledge and promoting inappropriate priorities. the ordinary person would rather see claudine barreto cry on tv than understand the current political situation.
anyway, i've strayed far from my topic. another late night channel surfing chanced upon vh1's feature on the fabulous life of j. lo. she's rich. i was amazed, aghast at the extravagance that she indulges in to live her life. at least pam anderson doesn't keep her money all to herself. she's even got 3 kids. j. lo., i mean jennifer, has all the rocks that she's got. no longer jenny or j. lo. - a change of name ought to change people's perceptions about her - but she's got being rich and a star out strong.
- korean movies
of course, who can discount the comic relief provided by these? not to mention the touching endings that usually come with the laugh. i've only laid my eyes on windstruck and my little bride during this sick leave. but i still can't forget the images from my sassy girl. my 14-year-old brother even watched it with me and my sister and he wants to watch it again. of course, their flawless skin and their different nature provide a refreshing new view on these love stories. oh yeah, have you watched my tutor friend? cholo from stairway to heaven is there. i only saw him crying his heart out on tv before and it's great to see him playing it tough here. i do love chinitos, yeah nika? he's also got this killer smile and this killer bod. i could go with him right now if he wanted me hehe :D
- chocolat
i had the impression that this was a very sensational movie when it was shown in theaters. i stumbled upon it being shown on studio 23 after another late-night meditation in front of the tv. i wonder what i'd do without the remote. the wonders of technology hehe :D doesn't really take much to keep me happy. Ü anyway, i knew johnny depp was starring here. and being the fan that i am, i watched it to indulge in his acting prowess and downright charm; the images of luscious chocolate i remembered from years past also drew me to this. however, a boring pace soon got me surfing again but i did get the gist of the story. i wasn't able to start it so i didn't know the history of the women there. but they were considered outcasts in that society where religion keeps a strong hold on the people. the chocolate they make somehow induces people to commit sins because of the sheer enjoyment they get. that's really sad. once more, women are placed in categories which shouldn't be there. these outcasts are expected to conform to what they were used to. stubbornness led to a boycott on immorality which was fixated on them. never mind their happiness, their sense of self. i'm not aware of the turning point but eventually, the town's main man understood these women's side and the whole town no longer sees them as a threat. johnny depp's character is subdued but comical in his own way. this is the first movie i've seen him kissing another woman. heartbreak anyone?
- the tailor of panama
brosnan plays the kontrabida here and he gets away with it. imagine stirring up trouble in panama over a fake story of the intended sale of the panama canal, a very important trade port. all that trouble and shame - the us army, after getting info from the british, once again suits up to become the hero of any conflict - for 15 million US dollars. just for money once more, folks.
- desperate housewives
the wives of wisteria lane are unique in their own ways. all have their own concerns - from the ridiculously outrageous to the genuine simple ones. i don't know what's all the fuss about these women, but theirs is an interesting story in their own right. sex and getting back is not everything in the world. i guess i'm still tied up by conventional beliefs. anyhoo, i think i'd be happier in what i believe to be right than what's happening over there in the studios.
- metropolis
i just watched this animation awhile ago. i read that there's also a vintage movie titled metropolis but i'm not sure if they're the same thing. after months of putting it off, i finally put it in the player and surprisigly, the story took me from the very start when other chances didn't before. i guess it was just waiting for the right moment. it's based on the comics of osamu tezuka so the story must've been really old. metropolis is like any ordinary city of the future. the people have a characteristic appearance here different from the usual drawings. they did look strange the first time i saw them. two looked quite normal, resembling astroboy's round face but not his hair - kenichi and rock, two of the main characters. one looked americanish in appearance (he's supposed to be a japanese) - this is kenichi's uncle - and one looks like the normal anime drawing, the robot fashioned from the rich man's late daughter. it's robot fiction. robots are now in use to do more work. the downside is many people, mostly from the impoverished sector are staying that way with no jobs and no means to succeed. so there's growing interest in the elimination of these robots. there's also the rich sector who try to stay in power, and who want to take control of the world. the latter is being accomplished with the help of a special robot. but the rich man's adopted son wouldn't hear of it and tries to thwart his plans even if his father would disown him. in the end, the structure built for that purpose, the ziggurat, is destroyed by that robot he tries to use after she realizes what she can do. but total world doom is prevented by a human, the first person the robot meets who knows her enough to stop her and try to reach to that being he once knew. an interesting facet of this animation is the musical score. it's different from the previous ones - or is it the trend in some animation nowadays? - because jazz music is featured here. i do not know the artists but they do keep you up on your toes. instead of the sound of a big explosion when the ziggurat was getting destroyed, what i heard was silence from the main explosion, the one that should've been the biggest, and then the entry of a jazz ballad with the lyrics sung by a man. the music was quite at home with the colors of the film. the bright colors seem to bring you back to the lively scene that i imagine new orleans once was, before that devastating hurricane.
