dizzy boy easy, you're obvious

i just needed to write. couldn't muster enough will to turn off the tv, get off the bed and start studying, for in 7 hours is the finals for math 53.

pedicab's first single has been playing in my mind for quite awhile already. i've seen the video twice. nothing really remarkable about it. just the ultra big shades the band was wearing which tey also wore on a gig, the ripe tomatoes of 99.5 RT, based on photos from the net. anyway, the recent viewing of the video has left me wanting for it more and more. i love the whole sound. it incites a certain vibe. like i'm hyperactive and free-spirited and carefree, but mysterious and wanting at the same time. does this make any sense? i love the way diego mapa voiced out (he wasn't really much singing; just voicing out the words with certain notes which could pretty much be called singing) the lines i love you / i love you forever / let's kill the dj together . yeah, those are the lines i love the most. at that point in the song, that's when i really like diego the most. he's so charming in those lines even though his eyes are hidden behind huge glasses. plus, the precocious person that he is - when he's not playing the guitar, he's singing and dancing away on the stage doing various moves with the mic - that all the more adds to his mysterious personality. i can't help but dream of him. he's not even quite recognizable at the ripe tomatoes gig because his hair has been cut very short and much of his face (like more than half of the top part) is invisible to me. so with the song playing and his image zooming in and out of my mind, i'm dreaming of him. and i had this strong urge to buy tugish takish, their album. just to know their whole sound. it also got me wondering how monsterbot sounds. but anyway, 'tis all. diego's taken. but i wanna live in the fantasy, for now, that we're in love and we're killing the dj. not much of the lyrics really make sense (to me, that is) but it's the sound plus the whole aura that counts.

when starstruck...

i came across this from the eheads ML.

iba talaga pag nakita mo iyong taong sobrang idol na idol mo. iyong tipong diyos na ang tingin mo dun sa taong iyon. shucks, pano kung makausap ko si ely? kahit na wala na eheads, taas pa rin ng tingin ko dito. here's an account, hehe.. basahin niyo na lang..

from http://www.livejournal.com/users/groovygemie/22484.html?#cutid1

Weird how my brother shifts from being the natural him to being such an Eheads fanatic in seconds! Nakakatuwa siya makita na ganon! One thing he said that made me realize how he adores the 'heads more than I do was this:: Tao pala si Ely. Kumakain din siya! kasabay ko siyasa buffet table..kumukha siya ng pagkain! kumakain si Ely!

nyahahaha. ang cute. :)

*end of quote*

stuck in solitude

7:37 pm, May 11, 2005

outside dims out as the moon rises
another chance to look over free spirits
curtains make ghostly shapes
a view superstitious people make
crawling in their skins, not knowing when to end

cobwebs glisten in the moonlight
as an ephemeral being gazes out of the window
wondering where everybody is
stuck in solitude within concrete walls
with much time in her hands
but nothing much to do

remnants of a dream 2: the disaster cooks

mismatched ingredients
incompetent cooks
unannounced party
we need to prepare some food
a spur of the moment
not much chance to get ready
a spoiled phone call
a misunderstanding ensues
time for the party
but nobody picks up the food
we all wonder what's happened
until Dad comes home with the news
he's fired from his job
could no longer get back to the place
all because of an error in the task set to us
they bought food from somewhere else
and are enjoying themselves
the 18th birthday of my cousin
and we're uninvited

- finished at 7:31 pm, May 11, 2005

conspiracy dreams

embraced by the dark
consciousness embedded in the abyss
unrealities visit
reminisced when wakened by the call of day.

scientific mysteries unfold upon you
renowned stars dote on you
asking kate hudson for an autograph
or a witty word into uma thurman's ear
it's an event of unexplainable beginnings.
but then a great conspiracy dawns
clones abound, evil masters at work.
how close to the stars can you get
when they're not real
only virtuals floating in the cosmos.

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the poem above was written for about 3 minutes i guess, this morning, finished at 9:16 am in mb 305, while we were having a break in our math class. it's an attempt to encapsulate the images that visited me on the few hours before peaceful slumber left me this glorious day. i don't know if you could get the message from it well, but it's a start. yes, trying my hand in poem writing now. anyway, 'twas a really weird dream. in fact, majority of my dreams are. seldom do i have any dream that's reality-based. there's usually elements that make it so unrealistic.

anyway, i miss those days i've been having dreams. because it's like a cycle with me. there are weeks when i'm dreamless and a week follows where i have dreams every night.

apple of the eye

some people just have the correct combination of everything for people's eyes to turn on them. the right facial features, right body type, right clothes, the right stride. yes, stride is an all important factor. it tells you if that person is confident or timid or what.

why those thoughts? i encountered one sure headturner on my way to sm yesterday. i should've brought the one i've written last night. when the sm north-bound jeep i was riding on yesterday got past veterans, i spied a goodlookin' guy. white shirt, black pants, black shoes (i think they were leather), black shades and black sling bag. his polo shirt was slung on his shoulder. he probably just came from school. he was walking on the sidewalk and i kept my gaze in his direction but not directly at him. he was just a perfect image right there walking. and the stride was everything. he's just the kind of guy i'd want. i noticed he was looking in my direction when the jeep stopped at the red light. he was probably eyeing the traffic light or the jeep because later on, he made to cross the street right behind the jeep and so to avoid looking at him, i turned my head so that i wouldn't see him. and wonder of wonders, he hoisted himself onto the rear of the jeep for a short ride to sm. course he was the first one to get off and headed for the nearest entrance. there were people swarming there so he made a far right turn, near the curb while i cut through near the corner. i believed he was looking in my direction. anyway, that was the closest encounter i could ever have with him. for one second i wanted to follow him but decided against it. i even thought i could find him within sm later on but no luck. oh well, till the next guy comes along.

mausok sa labas ng up

pansin mo agad pag nakaalis ka na sa confines ng up. for one, sobrang mausok talaga. nung pumunta akong rob east nung friday, grabe sobrang usok sa katipunan. iba talaga pag surrounded ka ng foliage. yes, kaya masaya sa loob ng up. almost pollution free, maganda pa sa mata. :)

i'm not really a pessimistic person

ask me to elaborate and you'll get an idea why. i don't promise i could elucidate it to you clearly but at least, i could let you have a glimpse of my stand. typing them all down here would be really long and - i forget the word - but it's going to be magulo. wala lang, just a rejoinder to the previous post.

something to fill the space

two days till the next class day..
somehow, i'm eternally encapsulated in a perenially revolving space.
i'm yearning for creative words but none had ever come forth so the only one i got is the preceding sentence. what an utter lack of art! i need inspiration.
come forth, then.
whatever..
this kinda sucks. and is a truckload of shit. looking forward to better days.