sana umuwi na lang ako sa probinsya.
kala mo mahihigitan mo ang kahinaan ng iyong will? hindi. kung ano man, nasayang lang ang dalawang araw na malapit nang maging tatlo. mantakin mo iyon. may mahabang eksam bukas sa chem 28 tapos nakahiga ka lang habang binabasa ang iyong notes. ang takaw mo pa. e di sana nakapagpa-adjust ka na ng braces at nakapag-enjy sa bahay.
at habang sinusulat mo 'to, wala ka pa ring balak bumangon at mag-aral nang matino. iyong tipong nakaupo sa mesa at nagso-solve ng mga problems. iniisip mo pa nga kung kailan ka makakapag-net upang mai-post ito sa blog mo. ang blog mong ang dami mong gustong ayusin sa susunod na makapag-net ka.
ayan, inaantok na ang iyong mga mata dahil sa hanging pumapalibot sa iyo bagamat naiinitan ka pa rin.
feeling mo ang galing-galing mo. nagsusulat ng ganito. pinapagalitan ang sarili, ikaw, na siyang nagsusulat ng mga pangaral na ito. feeling mo ang galing mo bilang tao, bilang up student, bilang mag-aaral ng food technology. ha! tingnan na lang natin bukas, simula ala-una ng hapon hanggang alas-tres. hindi mo kilala si del mundo. hindi mo pa lubos na kilala ang konsepto ng titrimetry, gravimetric analysis, pH at concentration. ilang oras na lang ang nalalabi. gagawa ka pa ng RDR. tingnan lang talaga natin.
ang taas ng pinapangarap mo pero wala ka namang ginagawa. magbago ka at maaabot mo iyon. ikaw rin ang magsisisi. hindi na maibabalik ang nakalipas.
mainit pa rin. haay...
muntik na kong mabuhayan ng loob sa pagsulat ng "ikaw rin ang magsisisi," pero hindi siya sapat. nakahiga pa rin ako. ewan ko kung hanggang kelan.
start here...
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
talking some more
i should like to talk more. well, to try to get things out of my head. or make a clearer semblance of them if not to get rid of them.
hmmm...
one thing on my mind which i haven't given full attention to is the current status of my religious belief/s. what about? whether i truly believe in Christ and all the roman catholic dogma. it's been a year or so already. i've only been going to mass when i'm in pangasinan.
(ok. i'm just gonna state the thoughts i've been having. it's not like i'm gonna be able to do some clear thinking here.)
and the previous entry's talking about my being out of touch with reality.
sheesh, i really need proximity to be able to keep up my relations with people. lalo na sa mga guys. if i made a friend or at least a casual acquaintance out of a guy today and i didn't get to see him tomorrow, i'd be so aloof it's like we just met on our next meeting. a perennial problem.
anyway, speaking of guys. i've seen the two guys i've been pining over ever since i realized summer classes are gonna start. actually, i was pining for only one, but then i got to see the other, and more frequently than the other may i add, that well, it's an added bonus. the other i've missed during the summer had his hair cut. didn't recognize him the first time i saw him. actually had the gall to look at him, and so we had a good stare at each other. i was drawn to him when i went to get water from casaa's water dispenser. and before i knew it, i was walking towards him looking at his face and that's when i realized it was him. him being the object of my all-about-guys-writings for the past months. darn, still haven't gotten over all those stuff. which is really frustrating or saddening or pitying for me.
i want to do a lot of things. not enough time to do but things i have to do. first up, i got to finish the results and discussion reports for experiments 5&6 and then study for the 1st long exam in quantitave inorganic analysis. chem for the summer. 6 hours a day in the chem pavilion. who would've thunk it? well i did. and it's a little more than two weeks before salvation comes. of course, throw in a number of exams before that happens.
i'll be darned. it's almost 3 pm on my watch. i haven't had lunch yet. and i'm planning to play today. so much for the top two things i have to do. promise, tonight. that is, if i don't pick up gaiman's neverwhere (newly bought at the as walk for P250, still brand new with the NBS sticker still at the back haha) or finish dickens' great expectations (less than a half-inch of pages more).
the freakin' tag-item for the number of comments is quite frustrating. haven't got the time to sift through the lines of tags on the template. but it wasn't there before. shouldn't be. no change occurred in that part of the tag. wonder what happened. somebody fix this.
hmmm...
one thing on my mind which i haven't given full attention to is the current status of my religious belief/s. what about? whether i truly believe in Christ and all the roman catholic dogma. it's been a year or so already. i've only been going to mass when i'm in pangasinan.
(ok. i'm just gonna state the thoughts i've been having. it's not like i'm gonna be able to do some clear thinking here.)
and the previous entry's talking about my being out of touch with reality.
sheesh, i really need proximity to be able to keep up my relations with people. lalo na sa mga guys. if i made a friend or at least a casual acquaintance out of a guy today and i didn't get to see him tomorrow, i'd be so aloof it's like we just met on our next meeting. a perennial problem.
anyway, speaking of guys. i've seen the two guys i've been pining over ever since i realized summer classes are gonna start. actually, i was pining for only one, but then i got to see the other, and more frequently than the other may i add, that well, it's an added bonus. the other i've missed during the summer had his hair cut. didn't recognize him the first time i saw him. actually had the gall to look at him, and so we had a good stare at each other. i was drawn to him when i went to get water from casaa's water dispenser. and before i knew it, i was walking towards him looking at his face and that's when i realized it was him. him being the object of my all-about-guys-writings for the past months. darn, still haven't gotten over all those stuff. which is really frustrating or saddening or pitying for me.
i want to do a lot of things. not enough time to do but things i have to do. first up, i got to finish the results and discussion reports for experiments 5&6 and then study for the 1st long exam in quantitave inorganic analysis. chem for the summer. 6 hours a day in the chem pavilion. who would've thunk it? well i did. and it's a little more than two weeks before salvation comes. of course, throw in a number of exams before that happens.
i'll be darned. it's almost 3 pm on my watch. i haven't had lunch yet. and i'm planning to play today. so much for the top two things i have to do. promise, tonight. that is, if i don't pick up gaiman's neverwhere (newly bought at the as walk for P250, still brand new with the NBS sticker still at the back haha) or finish dickens' great expectations (less than a half-inch of pages more).
the freakin' tag-item for the number of comments is quite frustrating. haven't got the time to sift through the lines of tags on the template. but it wasn't there before. shouldn't be. no change occurred in that part of the tag. wonder what happened. somebody fix this.
warm up muna
kumusta na ba? kay tagal na rin.
shet, parang out of touch pa rin ako sa mundong ibabaw.
haha, wala na akong ibang masabi.
parang masaya ako na hindi.
kuntento na marami pa ring hinahanap.
undecided pero giniginaw.
ha?
warm-up lang muna.
tagal na ring di nakapagsulat ng tungkol sa sarili.
puro na lang lab reports. mga flavonols, phenols, antioxidants, hypothesis testing, test for independence. tapos kung bakit hindi compatible ang mixture ng sodium carbonate at sodium bicarbonate. bakit kailangan magpakulo ng sodium hydroxide bago gumawa ng solutions ng NaOH.
hala.
wala lang.
ang daming dapat gawin.
malamig pa rin.
balita ko may labor day sale sa sm, simula ngayong weekend. malamang pati sa ibang malls. maganda sanang pumunta. ang dami ko pa kasing iniisip.
shet, parang out of touch pa rin ako sa mundong ibabaw.
haha, wala na akong ibang masabi.
parang masaya ako na hindi.
kuntento na marami pa ring hinahanap.
undecided pero giniginaw.
ha?
warm-up lang muna.
tagal na ring di nakapagsulat ng tungkol sa sarili.
puro na lang lab reports. mga flavonols, phenols, antioxidants, hypothesis testing, test for independence. tapos kung bakit hindi compatible ang mixture ng sodium carbonate at sodium bicarbonate. bakit kailangan magpakulo ng sodium hydroxide bago gumawa ng solutions ng NaOH.
hala.
wala lang.
ang daming dapat gawin.
malamig pa rin.
balita ko may labor day sale sa sm, simula ngayong weekend. malamang pati sa ibang malls. maganda sanang pumunta. ang dami ko pa kasing iniisip.
